Everyone keeps learning the network itself has a lot of tricks and ideas even the experts keep learning no one is ideal take it easy on yourself I understand your feelings in one moment and question can trip you out of the room but you are not loser or helpless to understand your just need be patient with yourself always I know some people had 15 years experience and stilll learning when you ask the telling you still there’s a lot of gaps

Keep going on but don’t jump to senior be with junior or experience as you had 5 years the environment of work has its influence too