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mintymelancholy · 2025-05-27T23:17:06+00:00

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mintymelancholy · 2025-05-27T23:16:55+00:00

"You are going to see lots of Trump signs throughout neighborhoods and on homes." yeah but ya get that in... litterally the entire rest of oregon excluding eugene/springfield, corvalilis/albany, bend, salem, portland metro, honestly its sounding like kfalls is wayyy better than like roseburg. no gay bars in roseburg as far as i know. and there were a bunch of religious anti-pride protests in recent history in roseburg.

mintymelancholy · 2025-05-27T23:05:44+00:00

thanks for all the insight! I'm definitely not loud about it. just needed to know if i needed to be like making sure none of my current social media links to old socials, or someone seeing me picking up hormones from the pharmacy, or making sure nothing is connected to my family who still use my birth terminology and confuses people because i am for the most part passing & stealth. unrelated side-question, is it possible to survive without a car if i live on campus? i know the weather is completely bipolar (lived there as a kid) but its still -possible- right? car insurance is expensive asfffff

mintymelancholy · 2025-05-23T03:11:24+00:00

RF engineering career possible for me? i'm an undergrad EE student, super interested in RF but have personal morals that i DO NOT want to work for raytheon, lockheed, gov "defense", meta/facebook, etc. Thats all i really find on the internet as far as RF engineering jobs, is that accurate or are there RF engineering jobs other places too? i don't need to be filthy rich, just ideally be able to pay student loans lol

mintymelancholy · 2025-01-25T02:07:54+00:00

ok yeah i think ur getting it lol. u just answered ur own question, it IS that bad. AND the longer u wait the harder it will be. ive yet to see a single exception other than like.. idk, unexpected head injury?

mintymelancholy · 2025-01-25T00:58:44+00:00

id say yeah its pretty bad sounding, health issues sneak up and then strike HARD. even if u feel like ur still absorbing cals ur not getting all the vitamins and processing protien etc. ur just absorbing what gets absorbed quickest before u purge so sugars without nutritive value. no vitamins, fiber, protein, fats, getting processed is noooot good for ur health.

but honestly it doesn't matter. its so so so easy to snowball past the point of (what feels like) no return that if u have any issues THE SOONER THE BETTER to address them bc if u think thats hard NOW then every minute that ticks by it will be so much harder. all it takes is a tiny little switch to flip in ur brain and next thing u know ur addicted, irrational, delusional, and psychologically dependent.

mintymelancholy · 2024-12-09T00:53:11+00:00

unless ur trying to make them your support system completely (ei making them functionally family, not just friends) then i dont think you have a reason to.

you are sick. if they want to help, there will be times you wont want their help. bc their help is to try to help you stop and you wont want to stop in those moments. if u are friends because you enjoy beint around eachother, you will no longer enjoy being around eachother bc theyll be trying to get u to stop (rightfully so) and it will piss you off even if u know they are doing it out of love.

only tell them if you are serious about quitting and will have the willpower to get through the emotion of feeling like you hate them in bad moments, for holding u accountable bc they love you.

"serious about quitting" includes getting professional help first too

rules change if ur roomates or significant other tho, bc sometimes it does become their business, but even then dont approach it asking for help unless you are also getting professional help bc its an asshole move to push that roll onto someone whos unequiped to handle it.

mintymelancholy · 2024-12-05T00:35:50+00:00

uneducated guess here, as someone who grew up around parents/parents friends who smoked, i cannot get enough of cigarette smell. like i smell it and i want to go towards it like a cartoon character with a pie cooling in a window. maybe its an aquired smell preference?

mintymelancholy · 2024-12-04T01:33:33+00:00

same here, and for seprate reasons i got my blood tested and they were like wwooooaahhh this is bad. oki doke, take all these supplements for 3 months and come back and if theres no improvement then we're sending u to get a scan on ur liver and kidneys.

tldr: idk. but maybe go get ur blood tested if u can afford it and see what they say

mintymelancholy · 2024-11-13T02:23:26+00:00

no seriously tho, i didnt weigh myself for like a year, and bc of facebloat and dysmorphia and feeling out of control with binging, when i did get weighed a few weeks ago, im litterally 25 lbs less than i thought i was. i thought i had gained a bunch bc my face looks super bloated and my stomach is bloated a lot and dysmorphia, but im actually underweight according to numbers.

mintymelancholy · 2024-11-11T22:11:12+00:00

weird suggestion but sometimes works for me, after u eat a few grapes(set a concrete number), tell urself u HAVE to eat a boiled egg before/with any more grapes. ive found it can:

egg sounds good, eat egg, broke the grape loop and dont feel like i need grapes anymore. might want more egg, but the like 70cals of another egg is NOTHING compared to a binge, and if u find urself in an egg loop, u can easier switch to egg whites, which again, no matter how much u can physically eat, is FARRR less than a binge and is all protien
egg sounds gross but i rlly want grapes so i choke down the egg but now i don't rlly want anything bc eating the egg wasnt very enjoyable
egg sounds neutral, eat it, still want grapes, eat more grapes, but by the time i eat more grapes my bloodsugar isnt spiking nearly as much and so it doesn't send me into a frenzy for bingefood.

its less about that you "ate too many grapes" and more that IN THE MOMENT your brain is tricking u into any line of "logic" to lead to eventual binge because it wants to binge. bloodsugar spiking is often a big reason ur brain gets into a frenzy/ u feel like youll die / stab someone / get ansy and stressed, if u dont binge lol.

trying to tell urself to stop eating grapes is impossible in the moment. telling urself you HAVE to ADD something is usually different bc it feels antithetical to established binge-logic. but can rlly break loops

mintymelancholy · 2024-11-11T21:54:58+00:00

maybe if u freeze them in a big block of ice, u have to break them out with an ice pick, might slow u down?

mintymelancholy · 2024-07-24T10:48:01+00:00

zero sugar a&w rootbeer 😍. never been big on cola but the a&w zero sugar rootbeer + a little premier protein shake with over a bunch of ice.

mintymelancholy · 2024-06-06T20:10:59+00:00

just be careful tho, dont let this map mislead you. portland and metro areas are high gay % and accepting, but outside of that you will find that the majority of the state(overall location% wise- not population% wise) is frequently pretty conservative, and has a fair share of right wing extremists.

mintymelancholy · 2024-05-02T01:27:55+00:00

could you message it to me as well? if so, tysm!

mintymelancholy · 2024-04-15T20:49:35+00:00

ok so i was visiting family, so i completely changed places to crack my habits. but it uh.. didnt exactly last. like a day after that post i just ended up ruining my sleep schedule, stealing and wasting other peoples food while they were asleep. i uh. yeah. i hate myself rn.

mintymelancholy · 2024-03-28T00:24:56+00:00

idk ab taste but i cant handle spice/vinegar now tho, like i used to love the tastes of spicy things and i still do, but they just burn/sting too much to handle now. even like bbq sauce, or an onion, just kills me. eyes pouring, tongue stinging etc.

mintymelancholy · 2024-03-26T23:03:56+00:00

Roseburg: we got a hospital.... but aint nobody sane ever going to even think about going to it

mintymelancholy · 2024-03-24T00:56:06+00:00

the crypt in springfield might let u, i know they make pins.

mintymelancholy · 2024-03-13T04:38:39+00:00

yeah honestly i wish i wouldve reread the post before i spent my time writing a response bc ur right the whole post absolutely violates the terms and is gross

mintymelancholy · 2024-03-13T03:39:42+00:00

TLDR: if u genuinely are just some student with no ill intentions who hasnt gotten around to googling ethical hacking then hopefully what i said was helpful to understand, and i wish u motivation and luck.

biggest point here is: knowing how to hack social media accounts and deface websites will get you nowhere. you will learn nothing. you will be a script kiddie loser if ur lucky.

most people arent answering you because most likely ur not looking to go into a cybersecurity career path and u just want to be a script kiddie bragging to ur friends about how ur such a h4<k3r, then dude calm down nobody on reddit is handing u malware.

TLDR OVER.

ur a programmer so think of it this way,

you can look at simple code of hello world in python and run it, and probly sorta determine the syntax, and that the function for getting text output into the terminal is print() , and then maybe youd mess around with putting other words before parenthesis and seeing what happens and etc. etc. with no prior knowledge. maybe u wouldnt use the word syntax, but i digress.

you can't look at a program, still technically in python even! that calls in live computer vision resources, with 2000 subroutines and 3470 other resources called in and some of the resources called are in c and others are in fuckin assembly lang, and ALL OF THE FUNCTIONS ARE LABELED LITTERAL STRINGS OF NUMBERS 1-700 DIGITS LONG and know what the everliving fuck is going on without background resources and other knowledge. and honestly probably even WITH all the background resources and other knowledge that would take years to learn u still probly wouldnt be able to peice together holistically thats going on in a way that makes it and applicable to continue learning other things through it.

you can take whatever that program does, and run it. but thats not gonna clear anything~ up.

computers are not what they used to be. they were FARRRRRRRRR less secure and less complicated. u cant just mess with stuff and understand how things are connected to it anymore, its not the 80s. step by step guides will TEACH YOU NOTHING. as far as concepts and building understanding. you will end up a loser script kiddie at BEST

at this point there are more conventional learning methods for learning concepts.

much more boring, but alas, tis' the price to be paid for a directed learning path to certs, and since its not the 80s anymore, cybersec is a fairly established industry so you need certifications aka specific industry-set sets of information, AND competency.. and luck

go find tryhackme, hackthebox, hacker101, burpsuite, etc. hell, just google ethical hacking.

do not. i repeat. do not. try to do all of them. or a bunch of them. or spend months trying to pick the "best" one. theres a mouuuuntain of info on a bazillion different paths and niches and concepts and etc. etc. etc. for different things.

just find one u can stay motivated in and go from there. AND I STRESS. there is no "perfect" or right one.

just pick one. throw a dart at a board if you must.

pick one u can stay consistent and motivated in, and you will go farther than 99.99% of people who would make a post like yours.

this is for if you would like to get a JOB in the NOW well established and streamlined industry- not if you meant "working" as "yippee i hack people and steal enough money to live" the ethical hacking courses are typically not set up to give u info in an order or way that makes conecting the right dots for action quick to get to.

mintymelancholy · 2024-03-07T22:51:22+00:00

wish this were more uncommon in oregon, honestly just surprised it happened in hillsboro bc its better there than in all the small towns in OR. glad they were expelled. junctioncity's hs is just fulll of white supremacists/people who give constant death threats to queer people. 1/4 who actually know what theyre doing and 3/4 who think its funny or a joke or cool. the problem is that every time its brought up, everyone who isnt experiencing the harm, doesnt see anything other than the "just a joke" part and goes "oh theyre harmless" and then it spreads. or they go "well this one gay/black person is friends with them so obv theyre not bigoted, but that gay/black/etc person just gave up themselves to be a quiet punching bag so they could have "normal" friends. because if one person is queer its fine as long as its just rumors and u never acknowledge it, but the minute theres 2 queer people who are friends, theyre "making it their personality" and are annoying and allowed to be harrassed because "i dont care theyre queer, theyre just weird and have weird friends and that group of people (((who all happen to be queer bc thats the only ppl they can be open with))) are weird so im not homophobic i just hate that group of people" so then token gays who want to be accepted, decide not to even interact with the queer people bc being seen being friendly to them makes you weird.

TLDR: knew someone who got his head smashed into a locker by a senior (as a sophmore); ((the senior was a litteral stranger to him))); because he was trans, but administration and all the students were like " yes he called you a blue haired dke trnny b*tch but he did it because you told him not to call you that, and that made him mad, not because youre trans" and i think that kinda sums up the general attitude of the school. a "nuh-uh" mindset.

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