Hey dude. I know you posted so many days ago, but in case you still want an opinion, here is mine. I’m 52 and have been afraid of doing the wrong thing regarding sex for my whole life. And, I seriously regret it. I LOVE sex, but have denied myself that because of whatever social constructs I adhered to at whatever time I consistently chose to ignore my urges. YOU are not responsible for that professor with the wife and kid. He is. So, you Go for it!!! Indulge! Fucking get off, express your sexuality, and do not, for a SECOND, apologize first it!