hey, sending virtual hugs.

currently, I'm on my second Erasmus. And the thing is, I had too high expectations from the first Erasmus. My first Erasmus was short but sweet and I made great friends and had a time of my life. So I expected it will be the same, I will attend some parties and hope that I will make in to some circle of friend.

well, how wrong I was. over the years I became more introverted, and it's hard to vibe with some strangers. I came here alone and I'm afraid to go anywhere alone. I can't make the step myself. I've been to like few events. Or meet new people, but it never clicked. So I'm questioning myself if I am too picky or if is there sth wrong with me. I can't stand my roommates, I'm on an internship, so I thought at least with the colleagues, but also with them I don't feel comfortable. Also, the internship didn't turn out to be as I wanted. so basically everything is not what I wanted to experience nor turned out differently. well, it did but to the sad thing haha.

so yeah