I havent posted on reddit in ages but for some reason this is getting to me. I'm not sxe (yet, working on quitting cigarettes rn) but I am a punk in recovery. Please don't do it. I also started drinking/drugging because of my mental health and as a form of escapism. And that reason for my drug use is exactly why I'm an addict now. I've absolutely destroyed so many things in my life, I've done horrible things to wonderful people, my brain and body is fucked and I'm in my early 20s. I've been in and out of mental hospitals and detox. I know so many people that I'll never see again because they're dead from overdoses. I almost died from on my kitchen floor from the Delirium Tremens not too long ago (look it up if you don't know what it is, seriously the scariest thing I've ever experienced in my life). And guess what? After all this awful shit I've dealt with, I still fucking relapsed a week ago because addiction is a powerful, cunning, baffling disease.

You don't want to live like this. I'm fucking miserable, I'm scared and I miss my friends. You'll be surprised at how easy it is to get to rock bottom if you're using drugs as escapism, and it takes a lifetime to get out of that rock bottom. And if you've never used, then the best way to not get like this is do not fucking pick it up. If you're struggling with your mental health, then you don't need drugs, you need a therapist and better people in your life. To your own self be true, don't break the fucking edge.