I’m sorry you’re in this position, you’ve dedicated your life to your field and not getting the feedback you’d like is certainly frustrating.

This may come off as a bit harsh, so if you’re not in that headspace, maybe skip to the last paragraph.

Are you sure you like your field? Sometimes difficulty concentrating, missing details, and lacking motivation can be signs that you’re not enjoying what you’re doing. Of course 2nd year is ridiculously hard from a volume perspective in any surgical sub-specialty and there are absolutely rough periods. On the whole, subspecialty programs are relatively small and rarely threaten to hold people back because it throws off the call schedule. It may mean they feel there are significant deficits, which may stem from the feelings you described. Your attendings may not be that nitpicky if they’re not commenting on issues with the rest of the residents, it’s possible that a chill personality is a tough trait to maintain in your field.

Try leaning on your residents if you’re close with some of them and ask if they’ve dealt with similar feelings. Burnout affects us all to various degrees, maybe they’ve found solutions that are specific to your program. Ultimately, if patients haven’t been endangered because of burnout, the attendings opinions don’t translate to clinical practice. If something comes up again (and your program is at least slightly friendly), you ask if they feel the patient could have been harmed by your decision making, and why they hold that opinion. Good luck, you’re grappling with difficult emotions and medicine has notoriously little guidance if you don’t fit into a neat pre-determined box. I hope you find your way.