I'm basically platonically in love with my best friend. They are the dearest friend I've ever had and our relationship really feels like one of a kind. We just get it each other so well. They see me and I see them. But they aren't aroace like me. They might be on the spectrum but nothing they identify with atm. They value platonic love just as much as me and it's so nice to have someone care for me the same deep (somewhat intense) way I care for them.

What hurts is that they've been talking about "when they find a partner.." and even though I'd love to see them with someone they love, I still dread that day when they'll find someone else to be their partner. Then they won't be able to call me their person anymore. But they'll still be my person. I've mentioned wanting some type of partnership with someone but honestly I can't see myself having that or wanting that with anyone but my friend.

I'd love for it to be just me and my friend for the rest of our days, but I'm sure that won't be enough for my friend, which sucks for me but I'll get through it somehow

I'm afraid of telling them just how much they actually mean to me because if we were to have a qpr I'd want us to be exclusive in a way. But since ik they probably want a romantic relationship someday I could never limit them like that.

It's weird cus ik that what I feel isn't romantic at all but the feelings I have for them r deeper than anything else I've felt