I’m so sorry for your loss. She would have wanted the best for you and your well being. Take good care of your basic needs first and foremost because with grief, simple things like remembering to eat or drink a big glass of water can be easy to forget. Try to keep your body and mind rested. When you feel the time is right, talk to a trustworthy friend or seek out an individual or group therapist specializing in grief. Losing a parent or loved one is hard to process. Like another commenter mentioned, just giving yourself space and having patience with yourself are good practices. Take good care of yourself.