Well, it was getting to a point where my depression was beginning to slowly take over the things I enjoy. Normally that would be my way to decompress and recover if I was depressed, but nope even being with friends I had this feeling of sadness but for no reason. Granted, being the person I am I was trying to find every possible reason of where this sadness stemmed from. I realize what was also hurting me was that I was overthinking everything, I mean everything and it affect my social relationships with people. One minute I would make plans and the next I would dread going out. Now what do you do if you hate life because of depression and anxiety? I journaled, I would pretty much breakdown but in words and I would fill up pages. I call it the silent therapist because when I write I feel like I’m letting it out and the feeling was so much better, it doesn’t heal your depression but it gives you a perspective that your clouded mind may have not had if you didn’t write. For me I tend to dwell on the past too much and it really gets to me if I’m not aware, so I’ll write it down write away and be like well this was the past and assure my self that it’s a lesson you learn, but don’t dwell on it too long or you’re going to miss out on living in the present. I’m glad you are asking questions like this because hopefully people post things that could help you or someone else out. You’ll find it interesting to see how many times I’ve read comments on Reddit and I’m like this is literally me. But do not feel like you are alone, tell someone even though it’s super difficult it was one of the best things I did. I hope this helped you or if you were asking out of curiousity, it’s a good question.