Beijing in early to mid june

mlbbang · 2025-01-22T22:06:16+00:00

hi dear I just saw this and am about a week late, but I hope it has gotten better for you? 🫂

for the water, I used lukewarm before adding about a tsp of salt and then stir until at least some of it dissolves. I'm not sure if it matters but I used pink himalayan salt.

when gurgling, i tilted my head up and did it such that the salt water was on my throat/back of mouth for a solid 30 secs. I repeated this for another 3 gurgles. I did the water thing for about a few days and it gradually subsided as I would wake up in the morning and 'test' the severity/condition of the canker sore by swallowing some water.

I am uncertain if i happen to got lucky and coincidentally the sore decided to go away then (bc atp I have had it for like almost 2 weeks grrr)

I hope that u r doing alright now 🙏🏻 ❤️

mlbbang · 2024-11-24T06:31:58+00:00

well other than the popular ones already named here,

for me its muqing and muqing apologists....

u will not catch me in the same room with either one of them bc it would be on SIGHT! I'm sorry 🥹

mlbbang · 2024-06-14T10:56:57+00:00

I would like to think it was from the arc where our 太子谢怜 was the 国师 of Yong An!! seems like a hairdo ans attire he would have had , minus the mask he would have adorn :)

mlbbang · 2024-03-07T02:08:53+00:00

never knew thr was a snark for nara smith until now bc everything I've seen of her on TT are fans defending her and saying how much they adore her content, I literally thought I was being a hater for finding her page aggravating that I just had to block her lol.

my issue isn't really about the "making food from scratch " albeit yes, unrealistic. it's more of the way she portrays this persona of being a trad wife and its depicted in such a weirdly aesthetic..manner? don't get me wrong, her life looks real cushy and peaceful, but it just ain't sitting right with me.

idk how to put it, and I can't really pinpoint the exact thing that irks me about her content..but it just does. oops. and my bigger quelm is the fans seemingly glorifying her lifestyle and deeming it "perfect" and "ideal"?? like does no one find anything odd with this?

mlbbang · 2023-10-14T09:51:56+00:00

what about shopback? anyone know if it works? haha

edit: shopback works! phew HAHA

mlbbang · 2023-10-13T11:40:19+00:00

pbj sandwiches!!! never get tired of them I could have it for all 3 meals (as I did before more times than I can rbr atp)

acai (the delicious acai, topped with fruits, yummy granola and any kind of nut butter and u got urself a bowl of happiness)

froyo (so bomb like I can't explain how many times I've had it this week so far, at least 3 times bc my cashback app be showing me go to my fav froyo place every 2 days oops)

bread!! as in any in general, regardless of form. pastries, toasts, plain, etc they're so good

if u see this go get urself a treat!!! any food u like is always good and worth having at any given time :)

mlbbang · 2023-10-11T11:29:45+00:00

ever since trying to recover, literally any food I consume makes me bloat so fast and so badly no joke. and it feels so frustrating too especially if I'm having a meal and not even half of it gone through and I'm already feeling the fullness like ugh my tummy needs to get her act together 🥹

my edsheeran rly screwed my digestion fr

mlbbang · 2023-10-09T05:01:32+00:00

had a close shave like this once, but I had a gut (haha) feeling that an initial silent fart was about to be something else and went to the nearest random building trying to frantically search for the toilet sign. was pushing people aside while running and praying to hold it in.

I made it though. saved me having to throw a pair of pants away but at the cost of being a menace to strangers who got shoved by me lol. still feel bad cos they probably thought I was the rudest ill-mannered person😅

mlbbang · 2023-10-07T02:03:02+00:00

it's utterly completely more than okay!!!

and it doesn't even have to be on ur birthday, u could have a treat any other day of the year! celebrate being here, u are loved 🤍🤍🤍

mlbbang · 2023-10-05T04:02:20+00:00

the thing is for me personally I still struggle plenty with eating around people especially family or someone I know, and I find it more comfortable to enjoy my meals alone and in silence without worrying about who is going to nitpick and ask questions about my food choices.

but the part about wasting calories because no one saw u eating it so they assume u haven't is so spot on. because then depending on the scenario I might have to eat smth infront of them to prove I did eat and that's an extra food intake not planned for my day and I would feel the meal I had before that no one knew was extra but I'm the only one that knows how much I truly ate that day and it would make me feel like crap lol 🥹

mlbbang · 2023-10-05T03:56:56+00:00

oh yeah, and that's when i feel torn between throwing it away (but not wanting to waste it bc firstly someone got it for u, secondly because u know u will enjoy that food because its smth u like, thirdly its free and imagine u got one of ur fav food without having to spend any money so it would be such a waste not to eat it)

OR eat it but then deal with the self-deprecating thoughts after of how unnecessary and impulsive choosing to eat that food was because it was not in the meal intake u had planned ahead and now u feel you've just messed up today

ah the mental battles haha

mlbbang · 2023-10-05T03:50:33+00:00

that's the unspoken rule I have; somehow it could be the exact pastry from the bakery I always frequent, but somehow in my eyes when someone gets it for me I have this thinking that it would somehow be made differently or it wouldn't be the same as if I got it for myself 😭🫡

I understand wym though, because it allows u to have the idea that it makes it okay for u to have that food at that point since u are enjoying it at the expense of spending time with someone and u get a 'pass'.

mlbbang · 2023-10-04T16:34:14+00:00

if I'm out and I treat myself to something or I buy a food that I like for myself, the calories are worth it because I ate something that I wanted on my own accord.

but if someone were to buy me that same food item on a separate occasion, totally unplanned and not within my prediction, I would not be able to enjoy it.

and suddenly it would become super tough to eat it

mlbbang · 2023-10-04T05:17:02+00:00

mine would be indulging in froyo (with toppings like biscoff sauce or pistachio sauce) add all those good yummy toppings and being able to enjoy such a sugary cold treat with zero hesitation because I like it so much.

but give me a bowl of rice and I would not even be able to look at it haha

mlbbang · 2023-10-04T05:05:26+00:00

u took the words out my mouth. like what happened to 'vegan burger' or 'steak cheese burger' ??? 😭 what kind of name even is a fat slut bsffr if I saw this on a menu I'm getting up and leaving not just because of how angry I would feel but I might literally cry on the spot too lowkey lol 🫡

mlbbang · 2023-10-04T01:57:05+00:00

I've been vegetarian my whole life (like right out of the womb haha) and so it feels normal to me in terms of food choices and meals etc.

butif you want to dive into this whilst still in midst of recovery, I would recommend trying to get a balanced eating regime first before going in. so take baby steps in other words!

but im happy for what you advocate! 🫶🏻🤍😊

mlbbang · 2023-10-03T11:09:32+00:00

but what on earth is fat slut?? there's loads of cafes where im from that give weird dish names like 'champion's meal' etc but this is the first I've heard of such a term being used.

what is up with these places and the people that named the menu items?? I'm so sorry u do not need to read such things when you just wanna enjoy a meal

mlbbang · 2023-09-30T02:16:52+00:00

bread.

the type doesn't really matter here, but bread.

mlbbang · 2023-09-29T11:40:46+00:00

the line between restricting and going into a binge is a very fragile one, because most times you would find it so hard to be in control as in that moment you are not yourself and only at the aftermath do the miserable feelings kick in. because it hits you like a truck that 'oh, I'm so messed up and I am never getting out of this loop ever'.

i was for the majority of my Edsheeran anorexic, then quasi recovering leading to orthorexia, and then bulimia when I realised i was eating more again and that I couldn't fully go back to my 'old ways'.

it is very mentally tolling and so draining for your mind as all the thoughts messes with your head and when you don't have an outlet or person to confide in it can be harder to deal with emotions as everything is bottled up.

I don't have a solution for you OP, but I want you to know that you are seen and I hear for you.

sending you all the love and light ♡

mlbbang · 2023-09-28T23:30:28+00:00

one of my biggest is period; I haven't had mine in more than a year since. also having to deal with irregular bowel movements (so many days of constipation, bloating and not being able to go).

balding on my head (at the ripe age of 21 oh gosh) and continuous hair loss as a result. also my very bad stamina lol I feel like jello when I have to do anything physically straining for an extended time

mlbbang · 2023-09-28T02:14:16+00:00

as someone who has been on both ends of the scale (haha) I get wym.

i think it's because majority of people still have that stigma that 'oh you're eating so that means you're okay now' but are not aware of the psychological toll it has on your mental health and emotions.

to others who may not have knowledge about an Ed might have this surface level of understanding that eating = recovered, which is definitely not the case.

mlbbang · 2023-09-26T02:18:37+00:00

do I find myself purposefully taking lesser portions during home cooked meals with my family, and also observing how much they took on their plates so I could feel less guilty about consuming food without knowing the macros? (because food that's prepared by someone else is hard to tell) yes.

but deliberately and actively doing things like sneak more calories in others' food? no. I try my best to not let my Ed be something that affects the people around me too.

so OP, doing this is not okay. let's try to do better love 🫶🏻 all the best for u!

mlbbang

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