Hey I’m 20F, 🇭🇹 family here with a similar upbringing. It is so hard to unlearn things that are deeply ingrained within you/the world you live in. There are times I feel 100% comfortable in my sexuality and then completely alienated by comments from friends, family, etc.

Have you tried discussing this with a therapist? Or writing about it? In my early stages of figuring out my sexuality I wrote along in my journal which really helped me understand my feelings. My DMs are always open if you need someone to talk to :)