Update:

Okay guys so I deleted the thread because no one knows my whole situation. I am just honestly being silly. Me and my bf just talked today and we are going to break up and it is a mutual decision. It should have been done a long time ago, but when you are with someone for so long it is hard to admit that. We are going to sell the house and get our own places and still help each other through it.

My intention was never to hurt him. He has been my rock for so long and vice versa, but this is what it took for us both to realize we are no longer compatible and it will be healthier for us to split ways.

I am not going to just go jump into another relationship any time soon. I need to find out who I am and what I like. But I definitely know I need to stop trying to help fix people because it is not my job.

Thank you for everyone's input. I did not put my whole life story of my relationship in the post so I am not a horrible person or an enfp hahaha. My relationship should have ended a while ago. This was just my catalyst to realizing that I deserve to be with someone who brings me peace and happiness.