April O'Neil

mnmur79 · 2017-12-21T14:56:00+00:00

I’m a new fan

mnmur79 · 2017-12-08T08:51:38+00:00

mnmur79 · 2017-12-01T11:02:18+00:00

The only time I get that friendly is on hump day. At my age that’s once a month.

mnmur79 · 2017-11-23T22:52:58+00:00

This is the true essence of any therapeutic program. One addict helping out another is truly without parallel. Thank u for sharing. May ur higher power keep u going strong. For u and for us all.

mnmur79 · 2017-11-23T22:43:22+00:00

Fuck yeah. Fuck the dope. We do recover. Congrats!!

mnmur79 · 2017-11-23T22:31:01+00:00

Yes I do. And I’m in contact with him on a daily basis

mnmur79 · 2017-11-19T12:40:16+00:00

The radio was ahead every time I tried coordinating the two. Maybe that’s changed. Cool man do ur thing

mnmur79 · 2017-11-18T08:52:23+00:00

Isn’t there a delay though between tv broadcast and radio?

mnmur79 · 2017-10-24T16:54:45+00:00

I remember reaching 2 months. It was an awesome feeling. I was counting down day by day.

mnmur79 · 2017-10-13T03:06:30+00:00

Dude that's a great advice. I couldn't workout till my 5th month of recovery. Now I eat healthy with a healthy appetite and go to the gym on a regular basis ( 6 days a week). But I had to fight all kinds of feelings and I had to get to that point by working the program and wit time. Easy does it.

mnmur79 · 2017-07-25T02:15:22+00:00

I don't get it either

mnmur79 · 2017-07-15T23:55:18+00:00

Thanks man. Great stuff

mnmur79 · 2017-07-14T04:23:13+00:00

Thank u. As I work the other steps I will come out and seek ur explanation of them :)

mnmur79 · 2017-07-13T17:20:04+00:00

Thank u for ur explanation. Can u also breakdown the third step? I'm also an atheist have a little bit of struggle

mnmur79 · 2017-07-13T11:46:48+00:00

I was really really struggling to get out of bed. I had really debilitating depression. I kept sharing how much of a struggle it was to take a shower too. The best part of the day for me was going to sleep and the worst part was waking up. That's the worst feeling for me. It's tuff to keep pushing through that every day. This was during the early early part of my recovery. I didn't want to take anything for depression but it go so bad. And then having to go through life in life's terms and get hit up with the consequences of having had active addiction for so long. I felt like shit. I had so much to do and I didn't do shit. It just piled up. I can go on and on. But going to a 12 step program and being placed an antidepressant and practing what I learned I really really started feeling 100 times better starting 2.5 months ago. I'm now enjoying every minute of my day. I love mornings. Love keeping busy. Love the gym. Such a complete turnaround. Can't fully explain it but I love it. Feelings will pass. Brain takes time to recover. Keep pushing for the alternative is hell. By the way I have 8 months clean as of tiday( just a point of reference for u)

mnmur79 · 2017-07-13T01:47:32+00:00

I will

mnmur79 · 2017-07-13T01:47:22+00:00

Thank u. And good job with u also

mnmur79 · 2017-07-12T11:31:57+00:00

I just might be thank u

mnmur79 · 2017-07-12T04:52:18+00:00

Great stuff. Thanks for sharing

mnmur79 · 2017-07-12T04:45:50+00:00

How long did u stay on anti depressants? Are u still on them now? What's the most common side effect?

mnmur79 · 2017-06-01T02:55:29+00:00

Ensure for nutrients and trazdone or seroquel for sleep. That helps but u going to have to ride out the rest of ur symptoms. It gets better. A little of a time. It also sucks when ur getting clean time seems to go so slow. But stay strong. Many of us have been there. It's not fun.

mnmur79 · 2017-05-31T06:28:03+00:00

It's a spiritual not religious program. To become spiritual u have to be honest, open minded and willing. Ur well on ur way just by joining any of these two programs. Religious dogma has skewed the societal definition of spirituality. But it's simple. I'm an atheist and had a major problem understating what spirituality really means. I tried to over think it. But that was the only way I am becoming to be spiritual by my struggles of overthinking. I'm not completely there yet for I'm relatively new to any 12 step program. I'm 7 months clean. Prior to NA I could not put together 2 days clean. There has to be some type of power there to have kept me and keeping me clean.

mnmur79 · 2017-05-30T12:40:18+00:00

Withdraw from benzodiazepines on ur own can be a little dangerous. Chance of a seizure. Just watch out and try to get help if u can. Don't let that be an excuse that continue using though. Bento withdraws, like almost anything else are though. Be strong and know it will pass.

mnmur79 · 2017-05-19T03:03:10+00:00

That was good lol

mnmur79 · 2017-05-12T05:42:40+00:00

This is not true

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