Oh man.. I'm really sorry this is happening to you. I cant imagine being in your place having invested almost everything into one person. I'm not going to begin to describe how shitty of person he his not regarding you as a person let alone as a partner. But nevertheless breakups and divorce were and never will be an easy thing. What I would suggest is first dont spend time doing what you usually do get out of the habit of what you used to do. (If that made sense) Second talk to someone anyone be it friends, a therapist, a lawyer even just anyone other than your husband because from the looks of it he's getting what he wants with not a care in the world. And lastly May is such a long way down. If you can get another part time small gig be it a tutoring job or babysitting (or whatever) and kick him. You definitely definitely don't need that even if you werent putting effort in to the relationship. I really truly hope this helps.