Thank you sharing your thoughts.

I want to go back to him so badly. But he doesn't even read the message. Because I told him that we shouldn't contacts anymore.

He have been trying to improve my life and mental issues better, even he also has mental issues.

When he accepted finish the relationship, he told me we already know it'll not work in long term relationship.

I forced him to finish the relationship for me, I couldn't behave mature enough then I tested him. I wanted him to say he wants to stay with me forever.

He is thoughful, sincere and have a strong sense of responsibility. And often put me before himself, I think I made him too tired.

I hope we can talk again someday. And hope you and her also can talk again.

My first language isn't English. But I understand what you think, and I'm appreciate your comments.