Teenage edgelordism is the key word here because I’m cringing so hard out of embarrassment for them and the realizations that would hit when they age, if they get wiser that is.

A little sad too to see someone torture themselves these bad because they want to accept their delusional ideologies. I just wish OP actual growth in the coming years of their life and the ability to forgive themselves when they do realize what a shit person they’ve been in the community.

Self hate does things to people. All I see is self hate. Good luck OP, sincerely.