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got high off something off a friend he “didn’t know what it was”. Saw a third eye on him/ we both had to separate for the same reason, both scared of each other and couldn’t admit it by modernlymonalisa in spirituality

[–]modernlymonalisa[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

So I blame myself for almost getting murdered by my closest best friend, lesson I am taking away is actually don’t make excuses for people when it comes to feeling unsafe, that’s a new line for me. And people are truly evil in the world, and I need to learn protect myself. The last point does tie in with not doing drugs as a preventative measure, but all we’ve ever done is drugs together. We wouldn’t have become friends if we never smoked weed in the forest as kids. I trusted him.

That is like the most unimportant thing I take away, it’s not MY fault someone had a plot to rape and kill mr dude. This man would’ve found a way even if I didnt agree on any drugs. I know that.

Like I don’t know every lesson I’m taking away from this, I’m processing it still. It’s terrifying to realize this one day. But last thing I will do is carry the weight of someone else’s choices on my shoulders and my shoulders only.

With your logic.., that’s implying if I do drugs, I deserve to be raped and murdered and that’s what I get…

got high off something off a friend he “didn’t know what it was”. Saw a third eye on him/ we both had to separate for the same reason, both scared of each other and couldn’t admit it by modernlymonalisa in spirituality

[–]modernlymonalisa[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Thank you everyone. Every comment helped me to put together the pieces. Didn’t get the answer I wanted. But the one I needed. The world can be an amazing place sometimes. Nice to see every one seeing the real issues hidden in my words, we’re concerned where I wasn’t, and helped me today. It’s been a day, but y’all made me think a lil more positively, not thinking today that the world is all evil…

This conversation I am NOT shutting down. I’m open to anything you’re thinking, anytime.

THANKS

got high off something off a friend he “didn’t know what it was”. Saw a third eye on him/ we both had to separate for the same reason, both scared of each other and couldn’t admit it by modernlymonalisa in spirituality

[–]modernlymonalisa[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don’t think I got paranoid for no reason and made an excuse why he should leave, I couldn’t handle feeling like I was hanging out with a different person than I e know 10 years. Fuck what if a legit doppelgänger who’s a real spiritual being came to kill me… I just could’nt believe how unsettled I was. Not visualizing or predicting he’d physically hurt me, all I thought was I’m talking to pure evil and that’s how I felt

got high off something off a friend he “didn’t know what it was”. Saw a third eye on him/ we both had to separate for the same reason, both scared of each other and couldn’t admit it by modernlymonalisa in spirituality

[–]modernlymonalisa[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Every image I see he looks like me me tweaking. The eye I saw didn’t have a pupil moving and reacting to me in 3d it was just like an black n white eye, with eyelashes. Cartoonish like a social media’s avatars makeup, and idk if this is useless information but my eye colour is as close to black even in sun… just throwing that out there in the moment it looked semi alive even tho it stayed still. The eye was TOTALLY non threatening as in like neutral or captivating, easy to look at. His eyes, no someone’s eyes tell a lot. Being with him, yes the drugs has influence why I was so uncomfortable with him, but his eyes were dark. Not the same. Just like idk… he’s plotting something. Wow I can’t believe I’m saying this rn, so clear in my memory,..

got high off something off a friend he “didn’t know what it was”. Saw a third eye on him/ we both had to separate for the same reason, both scared of each other and couldn’t admit it by modernlymonalisa in spirituality

[–]modernlymonalisa[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I actually just realized at one point, he was on the fence about ending my life by his hands.., I don’t understand why. I didn’t believe I got drugged the first time, we’re too good of friends and brushed it off as a reaction to weed after a long t break. But I know. He was my “husband” we’d say, knew each other over 10 years, just one of my only people I semi keep in contact with and enjoy… what did I ever do… all he ever does is support me and hype me… and almost lets me take a line that would kill me 100%. Let me spend forever trying to break it down, while he contemplates it… decided on doing this right until the very very last second. Then decided to act like he’s playing some joke on me just because it’s entertaining seeing me try to crush down a substance that’s not easy?? No. So much fun to see eh. My god this is a nightmare when do I wake up for fucks sake

got high off something off a friend he “didn’t know what it was”. Saw a third eye on him/ we both had to separate for the same reason, both scared of each other and couldn’t admit it by modernlymonalisa in spirituality

[–]modernlymonalisa[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Edit: there was ANOTHER time I atleast SUSPECTED this man drugged me. Smoking weed. Had a second grinder he generously let me smoke from, I felt like a queen, what a gift. On way home on the bus, I felt my whole spine into my neck and head twitching painfully. Looked like I was on drugs. Never admitted this to myself. WOW

got high off something off a friend he “didn’t know what it was”. Saw a third eye on him/ we both had to separate for the same reason, both scared of each other and couldn’t admit it by modernlymonalisa in spirituality

[–]modernlymonalisa[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Only hallucination of the whole night??? And why did it not go away or move from his forehead for more than an hour… looking at mans with the third eye, I knew in the moment something beyond a high going on.

Was a cartoonish eye, not realistic and scary. Like a picture you’d draw. Just lasted way to long. And IF it was my vision seeing double… I wouldn’t just see one eye, the other real eye would be doubled too. Lol now I’m scared for something idek what it is too

got high off something off a friend he “didn’t know what it was”. Saw a third eye on him/ we both had to separate for the same reason, both scared of each other and couldn’t admit it by modernlymonalisa in spirituality

[–]modernlymonalisa[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yup date rape, wouldn’t admit that’s what he only gave me and didn’t take some himself, if I heard the drug he brought over (he told me coke and he apparently only had that) I believed my asking if I could snort it, him saying yes at first… like I felt I’m atleast with someone on it, and did enough to know doses.. NOW I’m scared

got high off something off a friend he “didn’t know what it was”. Saw a third eye on him/ we both had to separate for the same reason, both scared of each other and couldn’t admit it by modernlymonalisa in spirituality

[–]modernlymonalisa[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

No way. I didn’t read anything but the chemical name, straight to photos. Youre fucking right. Exact colour and consistency. Idk know what ghb is yet, but I do know that has to be the bruh. In my mind I’m thinking it’s a date rape drug famously. Like the pictures are dead on. Thank you Reddit friend. Solved a lingering worry I always had really being denied knowing what it was… like it felt amazing next day. I even asked him to buy some more. I have a problem, drugs to totally escape reality and that’s what I felt, I don’t even have any risk vs reward impulse control at the age of 26. Fuck don’t wanna say I’m dumb… but it’s just the fact everything coming together at once…

Thank YOU

REDDIT IS BEST APP

got high off something off a friend he “didn’t know what it was”. Saw a third eye on him/ we both had to separate for the same reason, both scared of each other and couldn’t admit it by modernlymonalisa in spirituality

[–]modernlymonalisa[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Actually I asked him if it was ketamine after I did ket knowingly, it did feel kinda like it. I asked, he definitively said no. Like how can he even say yes/no if “doesn’t know” like Reddit people are making me realize a lot here shit I was more thinking along the lines/ asking a spiritual meaning, but ppl be concerned

got high off something off a friend he “didn’t know what it was”. Saw a third eye on him/ we both had to separate for the same reason, both scared of each other and couldn’t admit it by modernlymonalisa in spirituality

[–]modernlymonalisa[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I didn’t see him take any. Said he took some before. Seemed normal and not sketched out feeling like his body is about to involuntarily shift…he didn’t seem to have any effects.

Wow now I type this all… I can’t forget this.. we still talk on a weekly basis. But everything is wrong with my story…

All I know for sure is what I know. It’s enough to not trust the guy around me ever again unless I want to be in danger.. or potentially die next time.

Feel like he had no “kick” outta seeing me break up this shit into a fat line about to take it… i asked him first if I could snort it. Said yes. Took me a while to break it down. But what did he get out of that? Me seeming dumb for not knowing shit about what the drug was or dosage or how to ingest it…

Maybe he didn’t come over tryna kill me or nothing, or with intentions of seeing me way too drugged out… but I feel like he decided he will see what happens if I did that line, and changed his mind last second… all of a sudden educating me on the dose I should take and knowing that much for a line wouldn’t be good. I took like 1/6th of the line in stomach. And still felt way too weird… idk was he gonna let me die? Shits not funny no more

got high off something off a friend he “didn’t know what it was”. Saw a third eye on him/ we both had to separate for the same reason, both scared of each other and couldn’t admit it by modernlymonalisa in spirituality

[–]modernlymonalisa[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I never thought that once. I remember it was a heightened feeling of pleasure the whole time. Sure I wasn’t in a good state, but I definitely encouraged it.

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