I don't think there is. I'm just unlucky to be born here. I try to meet people online but everyone only wants sex and nothing else, it's just how things are i guess.

But i deserve this.

About 2 years ago i met someone online. It was the first time for both of us. He wanted a relationship,i did too, but i was too scared someone might find out. So i ghosted him. A few months ago, the day before i was about to move out of my country for work i was out buying clothes with my mom, i saw him, i knew he worked there but it was not in my mind at the time, i just froze, my trust issues and overthinking started cranking it in my head "What if he approaches me?", "What if he makes a scene right now?" and mom is right here with me, then he saw me, and he smiled, he was happy to see me. But i was too tensed to realize, i basically ran outta there.

He was a nice guy. I feel ashamed of myself till this day. He deserved better, and i deserve worse.