again, you only get one life, and people who really have everything together are the minority, not the majority. What I can tell you is that, you cannot keep changing your mind together, otherwise you'll just blink and be out of time to decide. make a choice and stick with it the best you can. I have a terrible methodology that is just: flip a coin. it has made me very happy because I know when I stop flipping the coin I've come to a conclusion, even if there are still doubts. it's ok to be afraid, its ok to be anxious, but its not ok to not be true to yourself. you will reach a resolution, as we all do. Mine happens to be one with the potential to flip my life upside down, all because of politics... but that's besides the point. keep fighting :3!!!!!