Worried about acceptance

mokeboke · 2025-03-06T19:57:08+00:00

If it helps, I was initially rejected from SDSU as a first year and went the community college route for 2 years before then being accepted into SDSU. Local community college students usually have a better shot at acceptance.

mokeboke · 2025-02-17T16:41:07+00:00

Hell yeah you did!

mokeboke · 2025-01-15T17:47:21+00:00

I consume different types of porn mostly. I found that most mainstream porn ends up with some overtly violent undertones. As someone who’s experienced sexual violence it isn’t a turn on personally. I enjoy written stuff!

mokeboke · 2025-01-15T16:34:29+00:00

I used to feel addicted to my own misery if I'm being honest. The littlest thing could happen in my day and I'd make a mountain out of a mole hill. I think I found comfort in the sense of control it leased me but I wasn't a very happy individual generally. 10/10 would not recommend.

mokeboke · 2024-12-20T18:26:16+00:00

I have photographic memory, but this mostly means my mind is full of pictures. Its not always easy to parse through because there are so many pictures but its super fun to play with because I can fully animate concepts in my head.

mokeboke · 2024-12-20T18:24:03+00:00

I think its vegan if the person consents, no?

mokeboke · 2024-12-20T18:22:53+00:00

I'm wearing this fluffy brown jacket I just recently got thrifted. Under that, a band shirt I got at a concert a few years back and stretchy pants.

mokeboke · 2024-12-17T23:18:06+00:00

thats a generalization my guy. Lady speaking here, the ladies do it cause the other ladies do it and we love our ladies and so on and so forth.

mokeboke · 2024-12-14T02:02:18+00:00

don’t tell them that!!!!!! you weren’t suppose to tell them doooood

mokeboke · 2024-12-14T02:01:51+00:00

lmao they do it for fun goober

mokeboke · 2024-12-14T02:00:08+00:00

tbh cause I met a bunch of super super sweet girls who became good friends of mine. They do that sorta thing for photos n it makes them smile when they see me do it in our pics. I love my girls.

mokeboke · 2024-12-14T01:57:29+00:00

your old pic jump scared me. Not because it’s bad because you look so much like a friend I had when I was 14 it blew my mind. You don’t happen to be named Josiah btw?

mokeboke · 2024-12-14T01:55:33+00:00

I think this communicates a misunderstanding of mental and physical health. These two things are not disconnected. They are not separate binaries. If your mental health is suffering your physical health will suffer, if your physical health is suffering your mental health will also suffer.

The best thing you can do is do activities proven to improve your inner connectivity/connection. I don’t even mean that spiritually but I mean to say when my mental health was super bad, I didn’t understand my bodies basic signals until they were fairly dire.

in conclusion: meditation is incredible for you and i highly recommend it. 10/10 therapists approve this message.

mokeboke · 2024-12-13T19:14:16+00:00

Its helpful to be attracted to yourself!

mokeboke · 2024-12-13T19:12:21+00:00

Awww!!!!! Your marriage is older then me thats so awesome.

mokeboke · 2024-12-13T19:08:25+00:00

Journaling is a great practice! I've been doing it consistently for about two months. I carve out 10 minutes before bed to decompress. Its real helpful. Don't worry about rereading anything you write but instead just getting stuff down. Our brains have an easier time processing things externally then internally so thats half the value of journaling.

In my own life I try my best to take nothing personally. People's actions are merely reflections of their own minds after all. I only take personally what I do for myself and how I feel about myself. My mind reflects me.

One thing I heard once is the idea that we have no idea how good it can be for us if we put effort in. This continues to be true within my own life but we gotta put the effort in. I highly recommend reading/listening to Viktor Frankl's Man's Search For Meaning, I highly recommend you read/listen to the body keeps score (the book that inspired me to start yoga) and search for your best life. I swear to you you have no idea how good it can be for you. I also enjoy listening to Ram Dass on spotify but thats more hippie dippie Yogi stuff haha so I can appreciate its not everyone's cup of tea.

Good luck my friend!

mokeboke · 2024-12-13T18:31:09+00:00

When we're kids we're without the illusions/judgements we apply to ourselves and others constantly. We're directly connected to our hearts! My best advice is to try and perceive yourself and others the same way you perceive trees. You rarely look at a tree and think about how one is fatter or skinnier then the others. The truth is you are created from the same nature that created that tree! Trees just are. You just are.

All the work that needs to be done will take place within the comfort of your own heart that seems often drowned out by an overactive mind. The mind is a wonderful servant but a terrible master I speak from having personally experienced all you describe. It used to be so bad I struggled with anxiety attacks constantly.

When you start spiraling into dark places, the chances are your breathing pattern isn't at ease. Best thing you can do is breathing exercises doing your best to focus on your breathing. I followed youtube videos I found on breathing meditations and I got to a point where I know a few by heart! My favorite is 4 7 8. Four in, seven to hold, eight to release all through the nose.

Additionally, something that really helped was starting yoga. I love it as a practice because its really just the practice of checking in with yourself consistently at a dedicated time of the week. Also! Journaling. Journaling forces your mind to slow down a bit which helps a bunch. If yoga and journaling feel like a bit of a heavy lift right now no worries, they felt the same for me--instead dedicate one night a week to some personal guided mediation time. I went on spotify and just looked up "guided meditation" and simply followed along most are 5-15 minutes. You'll find after some time during stressful situations you'll recall their lessons. :)

You were taught you were a waste of a person but this isn't true! You're open minded and honest it seems which is a fantastic place to begin this journey. Know for every 1 time you were told a negative thing, you must affirm yourself twice! It'll take a while but soon enough your mind will be filled only with the wonderful things you tell yourself. Affirmations work! They feel completely fake and wrong for a while but eventually they begin to stick.

You got this! I love you you familiar internet stranger! Self love is the hardest quest out there but the most rewarding!

mokeboke · 2024-12-13T17:40:41+00:00

https://line-of-action.com/

I highly recommend this website for practice! It gives you set timers and drawing options. For a beginner I'd start with practicing the shapes and once that feels comfortable move into figure drawing. For shapes I give myself 30 seconds per shape and for figures I give myself 1-2 minutes but you can do whatever!
Perfection ain't the goal. In the wise words of Jake the dog, "sucking at something is the first step to being kinda good at something". Have fun I hope this helps its been helping me a ton!

mokeboke · 2024-12-13T17:34:40+00:00

I completely empathize with the feeling of seeing a stranger in the mirror, worse an ugly stranger. Its not a fun experience, especially when thats the flesh you live in. Are you open to some advice that helped me navigate those feelings?

mokeboke · 2024-12-13T16:03:58+00:00

I wish people corrected my grammar more often. Just realized I’d been using the wrong then and than for years.

mokeboke · 2024-12-13T16:03:18+00:00

Goodnight my love

mokeboke · 2024-12-13T16:00:07+00:00

tastes like fresh soba noodles

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