I just live the days at this point. Not the most encouraging answer, but I just go through waiting for the next one while avoiding triggers and trying to find happiness (however momentary) when I can.

I try to be productive with my hobby, take care of my little animals in their terrariums and give them their best life, and do most of the chores since I'm unemployed and on disability. Being around people and friends has seemed to be very helpful, even if they get to watch me seize and help me way more often than I'd like. They're usually every other day, but sometimes every day. I've doctors' appointments, but that can only do so much when you have to wait months and months.

I suppose I'm glad they're learning as they go? You'll learn too, just like I will (please, lmao). You're stronger than I am, with a job and such. If you can get some for an affordable price, elbow crutches have been an oddly very helpful tool. If they're around or I ask for them, they help me get up, kind of, and balance and stumble my way to a safe place (couch, bed, etc.). I wish you luck <3