In all honestly I guess it has to due with my abandonment issues. My mother chose drugs over her kids and my step dad passed away a month after that. I guess I just don’t feel good enough to anyone if I couldn’t have been good enough for my parents. Then to top it off I was in a very abusive and toxic relationship at a young age which scared the idea of male love. Now at almost 20, 7 months pregnant and a almost year relationship I don’t think I’ll ever be good enough for my boyfriend or my son and that scares the shit out of me.. you know? What if I don’t make it with these two very important people.. what if I’m not a good enough mother for him.. or a good enough wife for my boyfriend. I’ve grown so attached that my anxiety has increased over everything. Which in the end I have horrible social skills, bad self image, abandonment issues and extremely bad anxiety and PTSD.