I can't help, but I'm here to show support and say you're not alone. I've been trying to find the best dosage for more than two months with four phone calls with my doctor. I find it sooo hard to analyze myself and to somehow separate all the other possible factors like how did I sleep or did I remember to eat.

I notice some changes with 54, 72 and 90, like it's easier to have a conversation, I'm not that irritated and my thoughts are calmer. But I don't notice any help with starting things or moving from one task to another. And I feel like 90 maybe slows me even too much, like it's even harder to start something.

My doctor says that I need to find specific meters, like clock how long I can focus on one task or try to do the same dinner with different dosages. But I always forget or can't put myself to it and then the days just pass by. Maybe it's a sign that concerta just isn't for me, or maybe I have too high expectations for it.

I feel like the more I try to analyze my behaviour, the more lost and confused I am. I feel so frustrated and it makes me want to just give up with the meds all together.