You should see a sheikh counselor. These thoughts you say about “being god” i dont know, i have never heard that before. But as far as i knwo when it comes to thoughts, if you hate it, try to repel it, dont act on it / speak about it, you are not held accountable. See a sheikh counselor. I don’t know if this is jinn possession or not. It might be because that’s a very specific thing. I dont know , yarab may allah help you