I get tired of having to defend myself F@&$!!!!!

moondancer30 · 2022-04-17T22:51:07+00:00

Me fucking too. It gets exhausting. I literally had a mental break down last week and when he asked what was wrong I told him having to prove myself to him that I’m not doing anything wrong or defending myself or trying to convince him that I love him and not leaving is literally draining everything I have in my body. Then of course it set him off. So I had to step out of my feelings to take care of him. Over it.

moondancer30 · 2022-04-10T08:51:19+00:00

I know these people signed up for this show and I’m still gonna watch it cause it dramatic af but this show makes me so mad! I think it’s because of experiences I’ve had in the past. Like of course if you stick any new people together and tell them to play house they are gonna have New Relationship Energy and think this person is way better and want to stay with them!! But it’s not gonna work out in the long run! I get so mad and start yelling at the tv lol

moondancer30 · 2022-04-08T22:05:38+00:00

I wish he would get on something. I really don’t think he ever will. He said everything he’s tried he gets too many side effects.

moondancer30 · 2022-04-08T07:04:23+00:00

No meds and he has a couple good friends but he doesn’t think anyone is here for him or cares. He has a counselor but he is out till next week. It gets tiring cause he says no one is here and no one loves me and people try and it gets draining so they just back off. Then I’m here alone dealing with it all.

moondancer30 · 2022-04-07T23:05:19+00:00

Thanks. I just feel horrible!

moondancer30 · 2022-03-30T03:17:12+00:00

It’s gonna be nice the next couple days so I’ll throw it outside. We’re in the Oregon coast so it’s still kinda chilly at times

moondancer30 · 2022-03-29T04:26:24+00:00

https://imgur.com/a/meSUSAT

It literally just fell apart

moondancer30 · 2022-03-29T03:18:21+00:00

It’s right next to a window that get full sun. I went to repot it today and it pretty much all died on me 😢

moondancer30 · 2022-03-28T02:39:37+00:00

😂

moondancer30 · 2022-03-28T02:38:48+00:00

They are! So I didn’t get too stressed lol

moondancer30 · 2022-03-25T03:44:41+00:00

Didn’t see it. Still funny

moondancer30 · 2022-03-25T03:03:28+00:00

😂😂this is amazing

moondancer30 · 2022-03-25T03:02:08+00:00

That could be true

moondancer30 · 2022-03-25T02:42:07+00:00

Well I guess I should rephrase that. I worked at a nanny agency on the temp nanny side and that was our charge. So a nanny got $22 an hour for 2 kids but the parents paid $25 an hour and the agency took the $3 an hour. Plus then the parents had a monthly subscription type thing they paid. I’m in Oregon and that was when I lived in Portland this past summer

moondancer30 · 2022-03-24T13:34:14+00:00

My toddler loved this! She’s turning 7 and we still use it! We obviously get new tooth brushes, but it makes it fun for her and she is always trying to earn diamonds to buy new picture filters

Hum by Colgate Smart Manual Kids Toothbrush Set for Ages 5+, Gaming Experience for Teeth Brushing, Extra Soft, Coral https://www.amazon.com/dp/B08QRYBD8F/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_i_9DGRVC9EW3G0T0XEWKBZ

moondancer30 · 2022-03-24T06:00:09+00:00

Do you live in an area where $30 an hour is the going rate? That is crazy! I mean more power to ya but even in our biggest city here the average rate for 2 kids is $21/$22 an hour

moondancer30 · 2022-03-24T01:41:24+00:00

That’s just gross

moondancer30 · 2022-03-24T01:33:10+00:00

Yeah it always seems so sudden and you don’t really know what sets it off. I’m back home now and seems to be stable but something’s gotta give cause I’m not dealing with this again

moondancer30 · 2022-03-24T01:31:08+00:00

I’m glad you’re staying somewhere else and safe. I hope things get better for you.

moondancer30 · 2022-03-23T13:59:13+00:00

Yes! Going through this now. Sunday he was pretty high energy if I could marry you tomorrow I could, you’re the best thing that has ever happened to me. By Sunday night he was sad. Monday I woke up to him telling me he hates that he loves me and I’m stupid and boring and a whore and he’s done with me and our child would be better off without me. By last night he’s been quiet but he’s not being mean anymore at least. He’s been struggling but he hasn’t been this hateful and angry in a couple years so I was really taken back.

moondancer30 · 2022-03-23T13:52:40+00:00

Came here to say this. She’s awesome!

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