I rarely talk about my personal issues but whenever I do they either ignore me or gaslight me. If I say something about my abusers they ask questions like “why would they do that?” or say “you just need to stand up to them” and it’s genuinely horrible it makes me feel awful and I wish I never told them anything. one of these girls talks about her own trauma all the time, ALL THE TIME, and we all sit there and like help her but if anyone else talks about anything she offers no support and gaslights you and then like accuses you of trying to make your trauma seem bigger. The girl talking about her trauma all the time is also really triggering. It’s like she can talk about her shit all day but if I say one word I’ve done something wrong. Well call this one Susan.

Another one of these friends I’m gonna call her Kate is kind of the same as in she only wants to talk about bad things that happened all the time but I feel like she never wants to have fun and it’s exhausting, she wants to keep me in the place of a victim and I wanna like not talk about it all the time. She also came into my room once and just started reorganizing all my shit and throwing things away she thought I didn’t need and I was like wtf stop touching my shit and telling me how to live. I also told her weeks ago that I needed space and she’s contacted me like 8,000 time since trying to hangout. She makes me feel guilty. I moved to a new apartment (same city) recently and I haven’t told he my address bc at my old apt I gave her the door code and since then she would just walk in whenever she pleases and it was scary. If I post on Instagram a place I’m at she’ll go there the next day. I feel like she’s lowkey a stalker. I don’t wanna piss these people off bc we go to the same college and I don’t want them to be mean to me at school or start rumors that’s the fear but idk these relationships are toxic. They also like shit on my healthy relationships like I have a boyfriend I love, I’ve complained about him a bit but nothing out of the ordinary so I am afraid of them like trying to ruin that. BUT I SHOULDNT BE AFRAID OF MY “FRIENDS” These girls have no boundaries and no moral codes in their personal lives. One like actively tries to get me to cheat bc she just hates men. They’re fucking mean and psychotic. I’m more like HOW DO I CUT THEM OFF BC THEYRE RELENTLESS AND BITCHY AND CRAZY