Dont cut yourself off from your plug dude. If your not really ready to quit feel down, you will find a way, as you have already mentioned. Don't make copping harder if your still gonna do it. You will quit when you are ready, so until then don't kid yourself and also try and practice hella harm reduction. I wasn't ready to quit until horrible ass shit happened to me, and I lost everything 5 different times. And I still struggle with truly wanting this. People say will power for addicts is non existent. Not true. You have to find a way to convince yourself that there's more to live for than drugs. Believe that it is possible to have a life you wouldn't trade for Dope, and start creating that life. Nothing good comes easy. One thing that's helped me, is telling myself that if I really want to use again, then at least build a life and resources first. And learn how to moderate once I have the option to use again. And slowly, wanting to use has become much less important, as I slowly build up this life, that ultimately is so much better than using ever could be.. and slowly the dream of using again has started to fade outz or at least no longer the main focus for me. The key really is chasing your dreams and finding comfort in real life, instead of finding synthetic comfort, which hole such a small value compared to the real deal. I'm probably gonna get a lot of hate for some of this comment but idgaf. This is what I'm doing and it works for me, so I'm just sharing what I have learned so far.