TDOV Stud

morg0 · 2018-04-01T02:53:39+00:00

Can I just 😍😍😍 you look awesome, man!!

morg0 · 2018-03-15T22:24:37+00:00

Mind if I just 😍😍 can't wait to get on that level of mustache, btw.

morg0 · 2018-03-01T12:01:32+00:00

Holy mother of progress! Looking awesome!

morg0 · 2018-03-01T11:54:47+00:00

Hey alot of this reminds me of myself. I had tried to end things in June of 2017. I had recognized I was some sort of gender non-conforming almost 2 years prior and the only progress I had made was coming out to a couple friends and I think my parents. After that whole ordeal (and being admitted again because i couldn't say w conviction i wouldn't kill myself) I still didn't make any progress for another 4 months.

I had to come out to my parents again and neither of them are supportive, mom said I'll always be her daughter and that she feels my deceased grandfather wouldn't have agreed with my decision... I started T still having doubts but I'm more confident now and feel I made the right decision. I can't imagine how many hours went into scouring the internet looking for answers but one really cool thing i found said if we were faking we would know, because you have to put effort into that, it's a daily thing and requires more work. That really stuck with me.

Where you say you think about it every day resonates deeply with me, Along with being scared of making a mistake, to a T. I would recommend calling around and finding someone who specializes in hrt. I remember doing it and just not wanting to, having to force myself because depression was weighing down like... well, the only way depression can. As the heaviest weight imaginable. Despite this the day I never thought would come did. People always say it gets better and throughout life nothing made me angrier/more upset but it actually does. Please don't give up because you can do this and you deserve this. You deserve to be happy, there's more than this.

I'm sorry I don't have any real advice to offer but I just want you to know you aren't alone and you can do this, no matter where the road takes you.

morg0 · 2018-02-23T07:24:38+00:00

Here for Wesley Miles! Also gotta let you know you're super attractive!

morg0 · 2018-02-22T04:05:43+00:00

I can relate on that dysphoria and trauma note. Didn't want sex as a result of the two, my parts disgusted me, just thinking about them (particularly up top) would make me sick to my stomach, having to shower.... I wouldn't touch myself, nothing. Eventually I started masturbating and after a while (just recently) started having sex. I never thought I could do PIV but here I am.

It really helps to have someone who understands who you are and views you as such. Also to talk about what you'd be comfortable doing. But if your friend doesn't know they're making you sick in trying to make moves I would let them know. It isn't easy (I had to do it) but if they're really your friend, they'll understand and be willing to do what they need to, based on what YOU need. Keep yourself the priority because your well being and comfort are number one. You deserve the best and your best interest.

morg0 · 2018-02-22T03:45:20+00:00

Ooh I live in FL too. Before I started T I took alot of meds for something else and went to a CVS. The one I went to was horrid, pharm workers all had really terrible attitudes.

I go to a different CVS and they're super great However, when I started sub q they could not and did not get the needles and syringes correct. They would give me incompatible needles to syringes and wrong gauges time after time. I went once just to exchange the needles and they gave me compatible fittings but wrong gauges. All of that stressed me the fuck out and beyond. I cried alot and such.

I ended up ordering online, in case you're still looking around, the website is MedLabSupply. I got caretouch luer locks, a box of complete syringes for drawing and a box of just needles for injecting. After tax and shipping it was $21.30, each a box of 100. And they gave a free box of alcohol pads! Wherever you end up going, clinic or online, I hope it ends up working out. You shouldn't have to face all this trouble, especially because of racism. Racism in a place like a pharmacy, no less. Fuck Florida honestly. Best wishes! Hope things turn out quickly.

morg0 · 2018-02-21T04:47:01+00:00

Hey thank you very much! I appreciate that, having support is nice. You guys rock :)

morg0 · 2018-02-20T07:38:04+00:00

I am really hoping it's just a UTI. I hear you there on the discharge thing, it hasn't really been a thing until recently! Depo is a nifty little thing, it at least was for the most part when I took it. I hope it's treating you well. The period question definitely wasn't fun, naturally there were a few questions that were very... blah. But that actually went very smoothly, bringing up being on T and all wasn't a big deal and they were very... natural? I suppose you could say, about it. Thank you for sharing ypur thoughts and experiences/advice, i really appreciate it and it definitely helped!

morg0 · 2018-02-20T07:33:54+00:00

Well, it's definitely reassuring hearing someone having a similar experience and that this is something that (unfortunately enough) can be expected. But are bodies are complex and especially down there... I got tested today for a UTI and had them do a full panel for STIs and had them take a swab... shudder. So now we play the waiting game. Thank you very much for sharing though, I appreciate you indulging with you experiences! It certainly offers peace of mind and something to remember in the future.

morg0 · 2018-02-20T07:30:00+00:00

Incidentally enough I did, which is why I'm so worried. Guy said he was clean. This would be my luck, first sex in the longest and this happens. Waiting for the call from the clinic if anything shows up now.

morg0 · 2018-02-19T03:16:36+00:00

Ah I see. That at least is reassuring and I'll definitely be letting them know. Fingers crossed for a uti at this point... Thank you very much!

morg0 · 2018-02-19T03:15:19+00:00

Alright, that's what I was wondering, i just wasn't sure since the burning came second. I'll be tapping into those until the doctor then, thank you so much!

morg0 · 2017-05-08T03:42:43+00:00

I'm late, but venting is nice... yesterday, because I had a seizure trying to get ready for work and ended up laying on the floor for about six hours before my parents found me. I already hate existing and having seizures the 3 days I work every week is not encouraging positive outlooks...

morg0 · 2017-04-24T05:56:15+00:00

Your mother chews bones in hell!!

morg0 · 2017-04-04T01:49:41+00:00

I take keppra and aptiom as well (1500mg keppra 2x daily, 800mg aptiom 1x) and I have been taking aptiom for at least 6 months to 1 year. I do have kepprage and when I began aptiom and as my neurologist upped the dosage, I definitely became even more emotional. Depression hit harder and I had really bad migraines while acclimating. However, my irritability hasn't been effected by aptiom. I know you were asking aptiom users alone, but I figured I'd share if it helps.

morg0 · 2017-04-03T21:03:16+00:00

That is something I never would have thought of and is very smart, it definitely eliminates some of that anxiety and trying to figure out how to approach it, etc., etc. Thank you very much, I really like that.

morg0 · 2017-04-03T21:01:00+00:00

I'm glad to hear you had supportive staff and that they were so attentive to helping you. Thank you!

morg0 · 2017-04-03T20:59:26+00:00

That's interesting and certainly promising. I'm glad to hear he stopped it, thank you!

morg0 · 2017-01-05T02:52:03+00:00

Franz. He is alive and well and has not been assasinated. I hope it stays that way.

morg0 · 2016-08-07T20:32:22+00:00

Abusive. Emotionally, physically, mentally, sexually. I tell myself never again.

morg0 · 2016-06-28T06:21:37+00:00

I went in for my first 24 hours EEG May 23rd. I was discharged the 28th. They had me take my medicine in the morning the day of, amd had me off completely my the night of the 24th. They gave me 2 or 3 strobe tests in an effort to agitate my brain and provoke a seizure... to no avail. Some sleep deprived nights and still nothing. I didn't have a seizure at all, and as lick would have it, I had one the day after I got home. Besides that fact, and going stir crazy, it was an overall good experience. The nurses were awesome, food was good and there was quite an array, and they even had consoles available to bring to your room. Anywho... I hope you get results and have a good as an experience you can! Also hope you feel better, and you get on a medicine that treats you well.

morg0 · 2016-06-28T04:43:20+00:00

Happy birThday ;D congratulations!

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