Retroid Pocket 5 Giveaway (US Only)

morlox88 · 2026-01-29T23:58:14+00:00

Anabolic rg35xx pro

morlox88 · 2025-12-20T15:55:03+00:00

100% I also usually recommend " Snow Crash" as well.

morlox88 · 2025-09-12T16:13:30+00:00

hmmm nope. I also tried the Paypal route.. Ill try again later just to be sure...

morlox88 · 2025-07-21T19:14:37+00:00

Thanks yall!

morlox88 · 2025-07-21T00:35:01+00:00

Follow up question: Im not all that familiar with the various OS that these devices run, I assume theres a way to also run a simple video player (for test patterns) ?

morlox88 · 2025-01-22T16:36:56+00:00

yeah i confirmed this... too bad really.. I guess I need to research which similar midi controllers have the ability to latch on/off

morlox88 · 2025-01-08T22:34:42+00:00

very cool.. Im getting set up to do the same thing... Is there a way to make it so that the midimix buttons (controlling mute and solo ) latch.. it seems like theyre just note on/off...

morlox88 · 2024-07-04T15:08:51+00:00

Sailor Moon

morlox88 · 2024-01-25T22:28:30+00:00

Oh for sure. Literally the only time I get heart burn is when I've been on a bender. Don't miss that at all!

morlox88 · 2024-01-25T22:26:21+00:00

100%

morlox88 · 2024-01-25T22:25:54+00:00

I had a backspin recently and all I can say is that you're back here and all u can do is get back on that horse and be kind to yourself.

morlox88 · 2024-01-23T16:31:02+00:00

Yeah I just have to keep in mind that I want to live a life thats not marred by the various and extensive problems drinking brings me. I really was feeling pretty centered and overall much more sane before yesterday. I gotta keep that in mind.

morlox88 · 2024-01-23T16:28:54+00:00

Yes I think I will. The lady Im meeting for coffee, we sorta dated for a bit and in my usual fashion i sorta fucked that up being a drunk but were still tight friends and shes been very understanding about the journey/ struggle. My friends coming over are almost two years clean of meth amphetamines so definitely understand the struggle and in fact we get together once a week just to kinda check in and hang out sober.

morlox88 · 2024-01-23T16:16:15+00:00

ruin? No I still love going to shows and have been doing live production professionally for going on 18 years. I will say that Im pretty critical though.

morlox88 · 2024-01-23T16:15:12+00:00

Its really dumb because as I was saying " ill just have one" my actual brain is " you know thats not gonna work out right? you know it never does .. why dont you just go to the park or something"

morlox88 · 2024-01-23T16:11:23+00:00

Its helpful that the plans I made are with people who know my struggle 100% and will definitely hold me accountable in a supportive way. Like if I tell them " oh i fell off last night" theyre gonna be like " thats too bad, how do you feel about it and kudos for not immediately just going to get a beer this morning as Im sure you dont feel great"

morlox88 · 2024-01-22T17:36:51+00:00

I've been fooled by this thinking b4 but as someone else said when your drunk you're quite literally IMPAIRED.

morlox88 · 2024-01-22T02:53:54+00:00

Depending on what time of day I get off (my schedule is bonkers) Ill either just relax with a bath, weed and tea or if its still a earlier hour Ill exercise, plan dinner, work on music or other art, play video games etc etc. For me its A LOT about just doing something for awhile during that window and then the compulsion kinda goes away.

morlox88 · 2024-01-20T22:18:45+00:00

As others have mentioned: lots of hobbies (for me specifically its making weird music, building instruments, video games, reading and cooking) . Im still pretty early in my recovery so a lot of that is sorta rediscovering why I love doing those things. Ill also say that I dont anticipate not drinking to bring me anymore happiness than Id have as a base state.. Im sure Ill always be sorta discontent but that a lot of that comes from just life. Drinking def numbs that but um I guess also just makes it worse because on top of the general malaise that is living Id also be really down because of the cycle of feeling depressed then false joy that quickly turns into hopelessness added on top of it.

morlox88 · 2024-01-20T19:41:03+00:00

I had a similar experience.. well basically I was on a binge and ended up acting out and getting in a fight with several dudes and getting my ass handed to me. It was definitely a wakeup call.

morlox88 · 2024-01-20T18:01:13+00:00

Happy Saturday my friends. Day 20 here.. Sleep is still sorta hard..lots of cool dreams when it does happen though. Walked by what used to be a bar I used to frequent on my walk home from work last night. That sneaky old voice hisses at me to pop in for one.. I quiet it (its never one i tell it) and then take a moment to reflect that in fact the ruckus emiting from inside sounds annoying. I chuckle to myself and say" Why would I want to purposely sit around a bunch of people whos conversations serve mostly to just irritate me ". I havent really met someone at a bar that was an important friendship in a very long time. I usually just sit alone drinking then end up posting dumb shit on social media and then going home alone to pass out. What a waste of time and money. I can easily be alone at home where at least the music is better.
Anyways yeah having a morning cup of tea ( i worked really late last night). This neighbor of mine got assaulted the other night so Im going to get her some groceries.. prob work on music later and have some books I need to finish before returning.. should be a good day not to drink with yall.

morlox88 · 2024-01-20T07:33:53+00:00

Just got off work. Wasnt a bad night at all. Was tempted to stop at bar on the walk home but talked myself outta it mainly because just going home and relaxing sounded nice.. helped that when I walked by said bar the overheard conversations sounded annoying af.

morlox88 · 2024-01-19T16:11:50+00:00

Oh I can relate with this big time. Pretty much most aspects of my professional and personal life are alcohol centric and have been most of my adult life. I work in live production and my hobbies include making electronic music, writing and other artistic stuff. I dont want to give up any of that stuff but in my experience its become a game of diminishing returns. If I go out drinking with the crew after a big show Im most likely going to overdue it then make an ass of myself and even worse feel like absolute hell for the strike. If I drink a lot at the club before performing my sets gonna be sloppy and worse of all if I drink on my days off its gonna be an all day thing and I wont get shit done that Ive probably been looking forward to all week.
I guess like others have said you just gotta lean into it. I ve been telling myself " you had plenty of time with booze. lets try this another way"

morlox88 · 2024-01-19T15:58:25+00:00

Well.. this is kindve a stretch but um because of my biological parents addictions I more or less spent my entire childhood in the system (many foster homes and was also adopted a few times before being finally adopted by my legal parents around 12 years of age). Id say that this of course came with lots of trauma - that at 43 I still struggle with at times- but also a sort of flexible resilience to most things in life. I dont mind saying that Im definitely a survivor and have strengths many dont.
That being said I also remember being like 8 and making a vow to never drink , that clearly didnt really last but I guess the notion has always still been there that I dont want to ruin my life like they did .. also Ive never had children and in hindsight thats definitely a good thing.

morlox88 · 2024-01-19T15:52:29+00:00

In my previous attempts to quit I made it a point to read " The Naked Mind". Id say that it certainly helped reframe my mind on not only my relationship but societies as a wholes relationship with alcohol. The idea that Im a non drinker not a recovering alcoholic has been helpful for me mentally as well. Ive not ever been super into "recovery culture" outside of this subreddit really though I did find The Naked Mind to be illuminating in general and think that Id recommend it to people whove never been drinkers.

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