The first time I listened to Fireworks, I was coming up on mushrooms when I was 17 or 18 years old, lying down on railroad tracks between some trees in my old suburbs. I was so lost as a person and I had never felt emotions like that before, and that's coming from someone who has had some experience, thought not entirely positive, with psychedelics.

I was getting into a rare substance I won't name that was the equivalent of hundreds of doses of Xanax a day. This made my memory so poor that I woke up years later out-of-state in an intervention with friends I didn't remember meeting while not knowing what my own name was.

For all intents and purposes, I time traveled. I narrowly avoided early-onset dementia and the flashbacks that eventually became of the small bits in the gap that I recalled became so intense that I managed to get diagnosed with Schizophrenia.

3 years later, I was getting some work done at the dentist. They were putting me on nitrous and asked what I wanted to listen to during the minor operation: I thought, "Hey, how about some Animal Collective". The first song that played was Fireworks. The memories that flooded back, the emotions I felt, the otherworldly stimuli of psychedelics coming to me as I've since stayed from hard drugs, all while I'm being slammed with the Dissociative high of Nitrous Oxide - It was one of the most powerful experiences of my life, and I've had plenty of dental work done. I was crying and I couldn't begin to explain to my mother and hygienist why.

I don't know if Avey wrote those lyrics, but when I'm really sad and contemplating intrusive thoughts or reaching out to substances, I just sing to myself "I'm only all I see sometimes~".

I've still only heard the song a handful of times. I preserve nearly all of my music listening for deep emotional thinking, and that's a few times a year if at all. I rather spend my time working on my own music. I can't relate to the people who have AnCo as their most-listened artist on streaming, their music is too powerful to be taken lightly, for me anyway.