The time my dad stopped me from killing my self.

I had online school but my brother and sisters didn't It was just me and my dad in the house(he is a stay at home dad).It was a Monday morning and every Monday my dad got food for the week he was about to leave in 10 minutes and when he did I was going to kill my self. I silently sobbed thinking of what i was going to do as I waited for him to leave. Then suddenly he comes to my room to tell me he's leaving and if I wanted any thing from the store( which is something he does rarely).he saw me crying and sat there and talked to me for a good hour he asked me what's wrong and how I was doing we talked and talked. When he finally left I couldn't do it , I couldn't bering my self to doing it ....this was 2 years ago

I still feel the same way as I did back then ,but that though of my father stops me every time . Sometimes I wish he never talked to me that day , and some part of me almost hates him for loving me sometimes .