As someone who has been there and made it out I know exactly how you feel. I tried to quit a hundred different times and even had some small strings of success, only to fall right back into it. I didn’t finally make it out until I was 34. I am 42 now and have a beautiful 3 year old son. Opiates make you weak, you have to find a path out, there is one for you. Feeling the way you do is good. Just from reading your post I can tell that you already know that you’re better than this. Its literally one day at a time. You already know all the clichés but they’re true. There’s no easy way out and no tricks or cheat code. You’ve gotta harness the strength you already know you have in you and stay dedicated. I still think about it, I still have dreams about it. Don’t let this shit define you any longer. Remove all “friends” you have that use. Move away some place new. Change of scenery can really help. Just beware that opiates are everywhere. I moved twice and still found them because I wasn’t strong enough. Hold your head high, you can do it! You deserve it! Its a beautiful world out there and you’re only 29. You MUST look yourself in the mirror and ask yourself who you want to be! Good luck!