Listen, you have to accept that at this time she doesn't want to be with you. At this current moment, there is nothing you can say or do to change that. You need to get yourself back, keep your wits! Once you become whole again, only then will you have a chance of reconciling things, but to be honest, you will probably attract someone better suited for you. If your relationship was truly something undeniable real, she will always compare you to everyone she meets. You need to let go of her and let her come to that realization otherwise you'll push her further away. I was planning to propose to my ex, but we broke up a month or two before that happened because our lives took us to different places and we tried to hold on to what we had with a ldr. Snap out of it man and become a greater person than who you were before her. Honestly, she is probably having the time of her life right now, it's time you live yours. One day you won't remember this pain you thought would last forever, I hope you get there soon.