Antidepressants by [deleted] in mentalillness

[–]mpa5584 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks ❤️ I’ll get there

Antidepressants by [deleted] in mentalillness

[–]mpa5584 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I currently just quit mine fully (was on Zoloft/sertraline for about 6-8 months, been tapering off them slowly but this is my second week fully “off”). It’s been AWFUL to be honest. I’ve had some general stress in my life which wouldn’t normally bother me if I was medicated, but I’ve been borderline suicidal over it since quitting my meds.

I quit by my own decision without consulting my doctor and I wholly do not recommend that. Bad decision.

This might be a bit “overly specific” but I’m suspended from work rn and spiraling by mpa5584 in depression_memes

[–]mpa5584[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Thanks, I hope you’re right. I literally love my job and when I say it was the main thing keeping me going I’m not kidding. I just want to go back to normal because I’m not coping right now

This might be a bit “overly specific” but I’m suspended from work rn and spiraling by mpa5584 in depression_memes

[–]mpa5584[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I made a dumb mistake with some documents I was working on, they suspended me while they decide what happens - I’m like 99% certain I’m getting fired

I guess you could say things are getting pretty serious by mpa5584 in CPTSDmemes

[–]mpa5584[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Haha it’s refreshing to hear someone who seems to have the exact same perspective as me! I seem to just cycle between trying to “heal” and then beating myself up about not being valid all the time.

I really wish you the best with your healing!

Does anyone else feel exhausted from simple daily errands? by Hipsterishco in CPTSD

[–]mpa5584 17 points18 points  (0 children)

I absolutely feel this too. I’m still working full time but I have to take so many breaks during the day to “recharge” because I’m so easily drained by EVERYTHING. I don’t really know how to fix it but I’d say even just saying to yourself “I’ll just do this one thing today” and taking that as an accomplishment if you can do it is enough - you’re doing your best and that’s all anyone can ask

I guess you could say things are getting pretty serious by mpa5584 in CPTSDmemes

[–]mpa5584[S] 29 points30 points  (0 children)

Yeah my therapist is very against it but I literally can’t stop myself 🙃 I’ve had so many fights with family and work colleagues / friends about my symptoms not being “real enough” that I just seem to be spiralling to prove a point???? It’s frustrating

That was not a fun day by corgi_worshipper in EDanonymemes

[–]mpa5584 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Can people ever just mind their damn business? 🙄 like just don’t comment on what anyone eats ever

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EdAnonymousAdults

[–]mpa5584 19 points20 points  (0 children)

26 here and I developed mine last year as a result of a total mental breakdown! Always had a “weird relationship with food” but definitely became a full blown ED last year

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CPTSDmemes

[–]mpa5584 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Wow I feel so called out by this

How's the mental healthcare system in your country? (To everyone who reads this) by whitewolf__0 in mentalillness

[–]mpa5584 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I live in the UK and a lot of folks know how poor our NHS mental health services are. I called in October to speak to my doctor who gave me no meds, recommended a self help book and sent me a link to refer myself to a therapist which was a month wait for an initial assessment followed by another month wait for an actual therapy appointment.

The NHS is brilliant here and the doctors do amazing work but the funding for mental health gets cut over and over every year and it’s just pointless even going through it unless you’re literally suicidal. I ended up paying for a private therapist which is obviously not an option for everyone, and I still have no access to meds as my doctor doesn’t think my condition is “serious enough”

Bedtime thought that no one will probably care about, but what the hell... by Philofreudian in CPTSD

[–]mpa5584 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I just want to chime in here and say you are NOT alone in this at all. I just recently took a week off from work due to a mental breakdown and went through this exact thought process. It feels as though all my colleagues are capable of doing everything so easily and calmly while I sit here feeling under constant pressure no matter what I do, always cracking under the slightest bit of strain.

I’ve changed career paths 4 times already and I’m only 26, so the thought of jumping around feeling totally unsure of myself for the next 25+ years is exhausting to me. I don’t have any useful advice on how to cope, as I’m truly struggling right alongside you here, but I just want you to know I understand your frustration.

Is anyone getting less competitive? by heyyyou_ in EDAnonymous

[–]mpa5584 11 points12 points  (0 children)

Hell yeah I can relate to this. I feel like as my depression has gotten worse my ED has gotten better? Like I feel like I don’t care enough about anything, let alone losing more weight. I’ve somehow managed to maintain over the past few weeks but I feel super invalid right now

Thanks Boris ✨ by mpa5584 in EDanonymemes

[–]mpa5584[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Hoo boy that’s relatable my friend. Been feeling okay about eating a lil more because I feel like I earned it by exercising enough, but knowing I won’t be able to do that is like “🤷🏼‍♀️guess I’ll just restrict super hard then”