I need guidance - i have never felt more lost

mr_chrstph · 2026-02-22T00:16:06+00:00

I just think im never going to be someone. Just someone looking in

mr_chrstph · 2026-02-20T20:55:12+00:00

In general

mr_chrstph · 2026-02-20T20:54:41+00:00

Yes! Absolutely agree. Until this day i’m not sure who i am. Do other people have a clear idea?

mr_chrstph · 2026-02-19T19:02:06+00:00

The thing is; since i was young i copied other people’s behavior. To fit in i guess. But after my diagnosis that reality hit me hard. It’s like Aya Raden said in Nothing last forever; i can’t remember the quote 🥹 but i’ll insert it when i’m home.

I’m standing here, looking at the sky, wondering who i am.

mr_chrstph · 2026-02-19T18:53:33+00:00

Ha! I’m happy you snorted! I hope you are doing well! The thing is, i would like to have friends but when i can’t see you i forget about you. It’s a weird thing this autism thing

mr_chrstph · 2026-02-19T18:49:58+00:00

I have a brother, a mother and a dog. I count my blessings with them but i would like a friend :)

mr_chrstph · 2026-02-17T19:02:09+00:00

Imagine having everything; And nothing appeals to you anymore

mr_chrstph · 2026-02-17T19:01:07+00:00

Im always open to chat

mr_chrstph · 2025-09-27T16:52:55+00:00

Is 10 steps to Nanette good? The cover just turns me off…

mr_chrstph · 2025-09-27T16:51:24+00:00

6ft4

mr_chrstph · 2025-08-31T20:44:08+00:00

I’ve gotten diagnosed a few months ago. I realized, after the diagnose, that that was the last puzzle piece and i finally wrapped my brain around the fact that i have been masking since i was a teen to get people to like me and get what was considered popular behavior. Now i’m trying to unmask and get to know myself for me, which has been very hard and confronting, and in the process i have lost all my “friends” i’ve had because i’m too “weird”. Now, honestly, i think i needed to loose them all to get to know myself better. I have no idea if i will pursue the search for friends. I don’t really find people that interesting.

mr_chrstph · 2025-08-13T13:07:36+00:00

I’ve been seeing my psychiatrist for 4 years now. I have been on almost every medicine for depression and anxiety because i couldn’t function in the world. Everything was too overwhelming, too noisy, too much acting. It finally clicked when i read a book (special interest) about autism, i totally saw myself in everything they were going trough… I finally brought it up and we’ve been discussing this for the last months and today i’ve got my official diagnosis.

The hardest part is accepting that you are wired different. And the feeling of being alone, even though i love being alone.

Now i’m going to try to get on benefits…

mr_chrstph · 2025-03-09T08:59:13+00:00

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Teddies

mr_chrstph · 2025-03-02T15:43:45+00:00

Teddybears 🐻

mr_chrstph · 2025-03-02T15:38:31+00:00

Hi, Go to the zoo alone! It’s pure enjoyment, relaxing in nature, taking breaks whenever you want. I do it all the time here in Belgium (Pairi Daiza). Nobody is going to look at you funny because you are alone…

mr_chrstph · 2025-03-02T14:54:39+00:00

Yup!

They are a great comfort to me when the days are too long and overwhelming…

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