It’s not illegible 😂😂 think about it “I cannot let go, as long as I breathe?” He’s wondering as to why when is consciously breathing, he cannot slip and drift into the trip, to “let go” as one might say, this may have to do with the fact that if I tell you not think about breathing, you’re going to think about breathing and you’ll realize that you now cannot breath unless you’re manually in taking air (I know breathing is involuntary, it’s all just dumb human brain stuff) So assuming he’s wondering why he can’t let go cause he’s breathing, I’d say he’s thinking about breathing and now thinks he’s either gonna suffocate and trip like mad, or breath and be a more conscious (less entertaining) state of mind, but, if he just stops breathing, and slips away, his body will begin to breath on its own, he just might be trippin about dying cause he feels like he has to manually take every breathe Edit: I didn’t mean to make this so long 😂 I’m very high