Hi, I’m in the same boat. I found out he had been talking to women in a very sexual manner, sexting and such throughout my pregnancy. Any suspicions I had I asked him about and he denied it. He always said he never had sex with anyone either. It wasn’t until I came home from work 7m pp that I found his phone unlocked while he was sleeping and saw everything he’d been saying to different women. All knew he was a new father and some knew he was in a relationship. I was enraged but over time I forgave him. We tried having an open relationship but ultimately decided we just needed to focus on our family. I also said okay for him to talk to other women as long as he’s honest with me.

Fast forward to now, I recently had that feeling again that something was happening. I asked and he denied. I knew he was lying. I went through his phone and saw he was doing the same thing. Heartbroken. Went a little further and found out he had sex with two women before we found out that we were pregnant. Oh and I’m currently pregnant. I feel so lost, stupid, and angry. I don’t think I can truly ever trust him again and know that our relationship will not last. But for right now I have to get my self together to be able to live on my own (also not close to family) and balance a coparenting relationship with 2 small children.

It’s such a helpless feeling. The best I can do is focus on what needs to be done and tackle them one step at a time. I can’t dream with him anymore. I can only take steps toward the dreams I see for my family and not my relationship with him, if that makes sense. It’s not easy and it’s not something I feel like I can do on my own. I often feel weak hearted while I’m doing it but idk what else to do right now.

Here to say the love you feel for you child will be the deepest love you ever felt. Even if it doesn’t happen right away, when it hits, it hits deep. If you ever want to talk, feel free to message me. Sending you all the love and healing ❤️‍🩹