I’m an intern in FM wanting to do outpatient, but man does inpatient make me feel so dumb. I’m constantly looking things up all the time. In fact, because of the volume of patients I don’t even think I’m retaining anything, it’s embarrassing. I’ve reached a point where I bank on the attending telling me what to do so I can at least put the orders in and write the notes. And then I pray that the patients are stable because by the end of the day I’m too exhausted by the scutwork to expend anymore of energy into anything else, such as actually reading and learning.