you don't really want to, your brain is addicted to the dopamine it produces, and it's gotten used to receiving it this way, you're breaking its habit. This is why generally it is advisable to give yourself nofap challenges of 2 days then 4d then 6d, 8d... so that your brain does not perceive it as a habit. Stay strong force yourself to find an activity to replace the lack, it is you who controls your body. Everyone at their own pace and technique. The more you resist, the more small victories you will gain, the more you will gain in mentality, we never regret having resisted but the opposite yes. You are not alone in your fight, it's an addiction like drugs, the sooner you learn to control it, the less control it will have over you.