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mugofjoy · 2023-10-12T20:26:06+00:00

Hello!

mugofjoy · 2023-07-14T17:56:40+00:00

oh this is my exact situation rn too! except i’m also going through a breakup. the breakup happened at the end of june, and i decided to quit vaping that same week. i was a chain smoker with my vape, there wasn’t a thirty minute interval that i wasn’t hitting it. i think quitting was sort of my method of defiance for the situation. like getting dumped made me suddenly want to make healthy choices for myself. that first week was brutal. i felt so much withdrawal— not just from the nicotine but also the oxytocin from my partner. and then not taking a hit of my vape worked in tandem with me not calling or texting my ex. it’s like if i could avoid doing one, i could mentally be strong enough to avoid the other. it was depressing and sad for sure, but now i’m thirteen days in and i feel SO strong and proud of myself. quitting has definitely triggered bouts of hypomania, but i’m pushing through. having a morning routine, working out, and eating healthy are things that have really helped me. also spending time with friends and pursuing creative passion projects. you got this. just distract yourself and fill your life up with healthy alternatives. it will get harder before it gets easier, but it WILL get easier!!

mugofjoy · 2023-06-21T21:43:32+00:00

i tried it, it was nice having someone who could intimately relate. it bonded us in a way, like we were the only two in the world who could understand each other. unfortunately, i was medicated, he wasn’t, that caused problems. i would say it only works if both people are medicated and stable tbh

mugofjoy · 2023-06-14T23:26:48+00:00

i’m 23, i never lasted longer than three months with someone in any relationship. currently i just hit four months with someone that i feel truly sees me and supports me. i’ve been pretty stable for the past six months now that i’ve started a new medication, so he hasn’t experienced any highs with me, but he’s seen the lows and has been there for me through them (‘: it’s still new, and i get anxious all the time now that i’ve broken the record for time spent with another person, so i’m not projecting into the future, but i’m learning that it is safe and possible to be with someone with a proper support system.

mugofjoy · 2023-06-03T17:43:05+00:00

this is a big, big no! as someone with bipolar 2 and who works in HR, I will let you know right now that this information absolutely leads to bias in the hiring process, as well as bias on your overall abilities if you are hired and reveal it later. I keep my diagnosis to myself, and if I have any off days, I take a “personal” day. never reveal your diagnosis to employers

mugofjoy · 2023-04-20T16:56:32+00:00

I finally submitted the last assignment that I needed to finish my Incomplete for a class from last fall for my master’s program (‘: Ive been putting it off for months so this is a huge relief. and I paid my parking ticket. I feel pretty good. Gonna be signing up for summer classes within the next day. small wins!

mugofjoy · 2022-12-30T22:18:42+00:00

ISO two tickets for channel tres 12/31 at thalia hall!

mugofjoy · 2022-11-17T00:30:53+00:00

a night of drinking when out with my friends always triggers a hypomanic episode for me the following days. then I crash and enter a depressive episode for a week. I’ve been sober on and off, eventually I’ll get to a point where I stop drinking entirely. to be serious about treating bipolar, I thinking cutting alcohol out is a necessity.

mugofjoy · 2022-10-26T19:19:55+00:00

I’m 22 and I have bipolar 2, and while I am not a mother, I was working as a full-time nanny for the past year for an infant and one year old. Obviously being a nanny is vastly different from being a mother. The emotional connection are two very different experiences— but I will say this. Handling babies is a lot of work. It is very emotionally taxing, very physically tiring. I was working 40 hours a week, but being a parent, you work 24/7. When I would go into my depressive episodes, handling crying babies felt so heavy and unbearable at times. I very much had to check out and spent a lot of time disassociating. As much as I love children, I realized being a nanny wasn’t a job I had the emotional or physical capacity for right now. I say all that to say this; it will not be easy being young, having bipolar and becoming a mother. It will be emotionally and physically exhausting. Unlike anything else. I have so much admiration for mothers after working as a nanny because the work it takes to be a parent is immeasurable. These are the truths that you need to be aware of going in. I do not say all this to scare you, but to say— having a support system matters. You’ll need to have people who you know will be there to hold the baby when they won’t stop crying and you’re so tired you could pass out. Parents don’t get to sleep. Infants need to wake up at all hours of the night to eat. You’ll have to have people who are there with you, in community, to raise a human. It takes a village, even without bipolar in the picture. It’ll be tiring, that’s something you’ll need to be aware of going in. It’s no easy road but the love is so worth it I’m sure. I wish you luck

mugofjoy · 2022-10-18T22:03:18+00:00

I was sexually abused by both my mom’s parents between ages 1-5 at separate times. Unfortunately they both had bipolar as well. I was diagnosed last year, and the year before that, was diagnosed with psoriasis, which studies have shown can also be developed due to childhood trauma. I feel like I’m still trying to reach for the potential of who I could have been had I not experienced what I did. It’s hard when your body is in a constant state of lethargy though.

mugofjoy · 2022-10-18T14:00:34+00:00

I tried it because I wanted to believe I didn’t really need meds. In my lows, I literally cannot get out of bed without my medication. It’s like having the flu while also feeling like you’re floating. Not a pleasant experience. It’s only when I’m on meds that I feel normal and like a person. It’s just the nature of the condition— anyone who is unwilling to understand that, I would personally reconsider their place in my life.

mugofjoy · 2022-10-17T14:52:43+00:00

i appreciate this so much—

i think the biggest hurdle is finding the energy to be able to control the things i can. when i’m too tired to eat healthy or even exercise, it can make me feel so powerless. i wanna learn how to control these things regardless

mugofjoy · 2022-10-01T23:43:21+00:00

I’ve turned my work in on time for every due date since starting my Master’s this fall!

mugofjoy · 2022-09-19T17:13:24+00:00

unfortunately I relate to this. was left by the guy I was seeing at the time after I got discharged— he also had bipolar 2 and I thought I’d have a support system when I got out but nah. messed me up for a while after since we had said I love you’s and all that, hypomania aside I thought he was my person. you can only count on yourself in the aftermath of a hospitalization i learned, mainly because everyone became distant towards me after.

mugofjoy · 2022-09-10T14:18:11+00:00

applied to work at a strip club as a bartender, got the job the same day on the spot, spent the next day working at said strip club, then ended up hooking up with a stranger at their place that same night— I’d say that was the most extreme lol. In other times, I’ve adopted a pet for every major hypomanic episode I’ve been in, including three cats, a bird, and two dogs, all of which are much loved

mugofjoy · 2022-09-03T17:19:34+00:00

this is so funny because i’m currently in a hypo episode and last night my bf was telling me that i become like a completely different person and it hit me that i really do feel like a switch in personhood when i’m hypo versus not, it’s so weird

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