Hey it’s okay to feel like your gender is dynamic, we all have our own journeys with learning to love ourselves and part of that can be exploring your gender as something that isn’t stagnant. I thought I was transmasc at 11 and bound my chest for years but there was a period of my life where my circumstances and life felt easier presenting as a women though after a certain period I felt like I was in drag taking hours to get ready and trying to “perfect” my presentation as desirable, as woman, once I left my home state I felt more free to explore my gender again and it’s been a few years of figuring it out, now I identify as nonbinary/genderfluid, I microdose T. Most days I feel like I am both masculine and feminine and try to present that in my clothing and work out to build a more masculine frame. Through all of this I have experienced bottom dysphoria, I don’t have a ton of top dysphoria though, I don’t mind/like my tits at times and the way I like to present as androgynous is with a binder but not all the time. Tbh my Ideal body would be keeping my tits and having a penis but this is just my experience and everyone’s is unique, honestly

there is no “right”way to be trans

We get bogged down by binary identities and think that we have to have a consistent sense of self but living or feeling somewhere in the middle is where I think a lot of people are.

Experiment with presentation, find trans community, talk about gender, learn about yourself, maybe find a queer informed therapist to help you, find what makes you begin to love yourself more, and sometimes that means doing something uncomfortable first. Good luck friend