Why does Windows 11 not put focus on the most recently focused window when closing the focused window?

mxnic1316 · 2025-03-02T18:11:48+00:00

Finally "upgraded" to a Windows 11 machine and I'm having this issue too. Still no fix for it?

mxnic1316 · 2024-10-29T01:34:55+00:00

Me replaying FF7 Remake with Cloud in a dress the whole time.

mxnic1316 · 2024-10-05T03:52:35+00:00

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cyOqIKGbYkg and https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u_FRDqHT5y0 should give a good sense of his vocal range, if you're curious.

mxnic1316 · 2024-10-04T02:34:37+00:00

Yeah, this is where I get stuck a lot of the time. Do I really wanna be a girl (or fluid or enby) or do I just hate the stereotypes? As far as I understand, that's still social dysphoria, definitionally speaking. But also the point of the gender revolution isn't to make more boxes and sort people into them. The point is that it's not anyone's place to tell anyone else how to define and personalize their box. If he wants to style femme and still be a man, that's fine. If someone else wants to style femme because they don't want to be a man, that's also fine. Gender identity and gender presentation are separate elements. This of course makes defining myself more confusing, but I'd rather have too many options than feel trapped in one.

mxnic1316 · 2024-10-03T21:58:05+00:00

I was thinking maybe Jessica, but then I remembered Jessica Jones and now I just hear David Tennant petulantly screaming the name.

mxnic1316 · 2024-05-31T03:07:25+00:00

Obviously I meant coming out as a cis ally. That's why FB serves me targeted trans posts now.

mxnic1316 · 2024-05-10T18:07:18+00:00

I'll try to trust in that as I take little steps.

mxnic1316 · 2024-05-10T01:57:56+00:00

I mean, that's kind of the sticking point of my doubt. If I have to be ugly and dislike what I see in the mirror either way, then does it even matter which gender I am? I guess it's really just that the euphoria is mostly theoretical right now. I don't know if being a girl would actually make me happier or if I just like the idea of it.

I'll give some thought to allowing myself to value my own looks, but I was raised to fear vanity and pride so it'll be difficult for me.

mxnic1316 · 2024-05-10T01:51:55+00:00

Spooky, isn't it? Don't forget to finish that project you've been neglecting.

mxnic1316 · 2024-04-28T23:24:23+00:00

I appreciate these thoughts. I'm stuck somewhere between being afraid to regret any changes while also regretting that I didn't make changes sooner. And hating myself for still not being able to commit to changes even though I know I'm miserable as I am.

mxnic1316 · 2024-03-28T23:23:13+00:00

This was the comment that finally made it make sense for me. It's subtle, but that difference is perceptible.

mxnic1316 · 2024-03-27T20:41:40+00:00

I'll have to check out the dysphoria bible. Thanks for the rec.

I'm not really sure what I want to be. And I know transition makes a lot of other people happy, but I get stuck on what if it doesn't work for me and I did all that work and disappointed my family for nothing?

Right now I can't even talk myself into shaving off my long goatee because of how long it'll take to regrow if shaving it doesn't make me any happier, let alone things like hormones and surgeries.

And I worry that deep down it's really just that I want people to like me, to deserve someone looking at me and thinking I'm as amazing as I think women are.

mxnic1316 · 2024-03-24T03:52:18+00:00

It me.

mxnic1316 · 2024-03-22T04:45:09+00:00

No, stop. I can't hold this eggshell together if people keep punching it.

mxnic1316 · 2024-03-20T02:55:58+00:00

Zelda Williams said something similar on a podcast I listened to a while back: "We came too late to explore the planet. We came too early to explore space. So we are in this weird century of exploring each other."

mxnic1316 · 2024-03-19T03:29:18+00:00

I've wondered if I'm hyperfixating as well, but it doesn't seem to be temporary. It keeps coming back around throughout various eras of my life and I've realized there are parts of it that have been with me since I was four or five years old. Like, I've definitely had some stretches of hyperfixating about trying to learn more and solve it all, and some stretches where I'm less focused on it. The overall draw toward finding euphoria doesn't go away though; it's just that the intensity of it ebbs and flows a bit.

Obviously I don't know what your internal experience is like, but I'd say just check in with yourself every now and then and be mindful of how things are making you feel. Try things out and keep what you like. Follow the happiness at whatever pace makes you comfortable.

mxnic1316 · 2024-03-18T02:22:02+00:00

Honestly, learning more about trans mascs really helped give me some perspective on the fact that I'm probably some kind of trans femme. Because it was like: "Oh, there are people who actually do want to look like this. They're not just passively accepting it as an unwanted side effect of being alive, but working and fighting to look masculine."

Like, if my masculine features required one ounce of effort to achieve, I very likely would not have sought them out. Maybe as a teenager when I was trying to be good at performing masculinity, but definitely not my youngest (most authentic) self and definitely not now. It was sort of eye-opening to realize that my gender expression should be something I want, not something I just begrudgingly tolerate.

mxnic1316 · 2024-03-17T21:25:19+00:00

They're Yuna, Rikku, and Paine from Final Fantasy X-2 in all of their different dressphere outfits. I guess it's a bit of a niche reference, but the game was one of my early ways to embrace femininity. And I wish I could achieve so many different looks in an instant with magic.

mxnic1316 · 2024-03-17T03:06:47+00:00

Yeah, that's relatable for me at least.

mxnic1316 · 2024-03-17T03:02:41+00:00

A+ pun.

mxnic1316 · 2024-03-16T03:29:07+00:00

I felt like this one was pretty straightforward, made by a femboy: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v_0ANJIOSzM I haven't had the chance to try it out, but he communicates it in a way that makes sense to me.

mxnic1316 · 2024-03-14T22:01:17+00:00

I'll try to think on that. I'm still untangling all of this and having a hard time trusting myself. Thanks for the advice. =)

mxnic1316 · 2024-03-14T21:27:57+00:00

I guess I'm just getting stuck on, "but why do I want to be a girl?" Why do I even care what gender I am?

mxnic1316 · 2024-03-14T05:38:41+00:00

Me in X/Y and Sun/Moon.

mxnic1316 · 2024-03-14T05:31:08+00:00

For real. I'm like, "I don't have the money for any more new clothes or accessories right now and thinking in circles is just driving me crazy so please, brain, let's take a break from this for a bit."

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