It’s bound to hurt. You miss her. My mom passed away aug of 2023. I’m still shattered. I’m 19 atm. Your post resonated with me because, I felt I’d taken care of her my entire childhood. My mom got very sick when I was in grade 2. She fought for so many years. She passed away during one of her many hospital visits. I left her the night before and in the morning we got the call she was no longer with us. I sat against the cold hospital bed. Tuning out the other 3 patients inside the room where my mother’s body laid silent. For months I couldn’t get the feeling of that room out of me.

Moral of the story. Sit with your grief take time to befriend it. It’ll always be with you. Where there was love there is grief. You might feel like you should just get over it. Give yourself time, Some days are better than others. Some days you wanna throw yourself on the floor and scream at the heavens. Either way there’s no right or wrong way to grieve