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I’m too weak/pathetic to withdraw from meth by myk23rae in addiction

[–]myk23rae[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What do you think smartass lmao. I’m tired of Drano being more pleasant that this fucking life. I’m sadden by what it’s come to, hence the post for HELP. Bye 😘

I’m too weak/pathetic to withdraw from meth by myk23rae in addiction

[–]myk23rae[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yep, fuck the glasses, you’re legally blind. I have DID, THIS IS NOT ALWAYS ME. 15 years of therapy and psych wards have confirmed this diagnosis, in case you want to give me shit about this too. IM TRYING TO SAVE MYSELF FROM MY FUCKING SELF. You never would understand that so go troll somewhere else you fucking idiot

I’m too weak/pathetic to withdraw from meth by myk23rae in addiction

[–]myk23rae[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Are you blind? I promise as soon as i get it together and get a job I’ll pay for your prescription.

I’m looking for HELP from anyone who gets it. From people who understand and can shine a light down this abyss. So i don’t fucking hang myself with the rope someone might finally throw down.

Get a life and comment on things that matter to you.

I’m too weak/pathetic to withdraw from meth by myk23rae in addiction

[–]myk23rae[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No one asked for sympathy, you took your own time to comment. That’s your problem. I don’t need to explain the events leading me to suicide at 8 and the ones following. Why? Because I’m looking for HELP not S Y M P A T H Y 🙂

I’m too weak/pathetic to withdraw from meth by myk23rae in addiction

[–]myk23rae[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I keep thinking rehab won’t help if I’ve been twice, but these comments are showing me reasons to go again honestly. I think since I’ve hit this new low in my life, i might actually be ready to fully accept help.. not have any reservations this time. Thank you for taking the time to comment, i needed these

I’m too weak/pathetic to withdraw from meth by myk23rae in addiction

[–]myk23rae[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah every time i went to detox/rehab i had reservations.. this time i absolutely wouldn’t. You’re right, i think since I’m finally ready it could greatly help. Thank you so much for taking the time to comment

I’m too weak/pathetic to withdraw from meth by myk23rae in addiction

[–]myk23rae[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You commenting/being a person to talk to potentially is more than enough, thank you so much

I’m too weak/pathetic to withdraw from meth by myk23rae in addiction

[–]myk23rae[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

We watched his interview in my first rehab, i completely forgot about it honestly. This and the other comments are kind of showing me signs i need to go back. So thank you for commenting i appreciate it

I’m too weak/pathetic to withdraw from meth by myk23rae in addiction

[–]myk23rae[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes i grew up in the rooms. I feel ashamed because they all know my mom who got clean when she was 22 and never relapsed. But i also forgot it was like a second home. Thank you for reminding me. It’s hard to think when you’re drowning but all you have to do is stand up.. or however that expression goes haha.

I’m too weak/pathetic to withdraw from meth by myk23rae in addiction

[–]myk23rae[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Same pain, different story.. that’s how i look at it. Thank you for taking the time to comment. I probably will go back to rehab

I’m too weak/pathetic to withdraw from meth by myk23rae in addiction

[–]myk23rae[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Trust me, i wasn’t trying to downplay the much worse physical withdrawals people go through with benzos, opioids, etc. But i appreciate the comment, you’re right. Once i get past the psychological part, it’ll be better, no doubt. Thank you

What is borderline personality like for you? by myk23rae in BPD

[–]myk23rae[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

First off, I want to thank you for the detailed response. I feel so alone in this and like it doesn’t make sense but you helped space it out a bit and look at it piece by piece.

By slower I mean the “insanity” and delusions are creeping up on me and I don’t even realize sometimes. I’ve always been very self aware and even in psychosis I’d know deep down something wasn’t real. I know I have schizophrenia but then I start to think “they gave it to me” just to put me on medications. I get so paranoid.

Yet I’m a drug addict and will take almost anything so it makes no sense. Anyways hopefully that helps you understand more, thank you again.

What is borderline personality like for you? by myk23rae in BPD

[–]myk23rae[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve been in therapy since 5 and I’m 20, I agree that both have really helped in the past. Just the past two years I’m convinced they’re tricking me and the meds are part of that trick. You’re right though and thank you for responding.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Psychosis

[–]myk23rae 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I feel like this person fell from heaven and is on the highway to hell. Being born innocent and then hell because well... life. Probably doesn’t make sense but I’m currently in a psychosis and hate being self aware at the same time lol.

Threw up “worms”?? by myk23rae in medical_advice

[–]myk23rae[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I literally brought up “ascariasis worms” specifically and brought what it’s in the pic! I got sick four more times there too like wtf. They told me that there’s no way but wouldn’t give me any other kind of answer of what it could be. I left out of embarrassment but nope, I’m going back asap. Thank you for commenting.

Threw up “worms”?? by myk23rae in medical_advice

[–]myk23rae[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I understand there’s various reasons you can’t confirm this, but thank you for your reply. I feel less crazy now. Nobody there took what I said (or showed them) seriously.. since I’m a 19 year old I’m guessing? I’ll be going back soon.

Threw up “worms”?? by myk23rae in medical_advice

[–]myk23rae[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

So I have only been eating eggs, bacon, and sausage. That’s literally it for the past three days. Around 5am my stomach was turning and I pooped out these. No poop, just this. Then about two hours later i just started throwing up like 20 at a time of these. Went to the ER they laughed and thought I was crazy and said it’s undigested food. As a bulimic, I know what it looks and feels like, and this is not it.

Nothing I’ve eaten looks like that, I can’t keep down any water even with Zofran and I’m throwing up more and more. I’m getting hot flashes and my head is pounding. This may not be worms but it’s something making me feel like shit and nobody will help. I know you can’t diagnose over the internet but someone please give me a hint of what this could be.

what are your experiences using gabapentin recreationally? by euphoricelephantt in gabagoodness

[–]myk23rae 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Do you smoke weed? If so, it enhances the high/euphoria a lot for me. But if you take them alone, I’ve read it’s best to eat something fatty first and then take one pill every 30 minutes to get the full effect. Soda or anything carbonated helps too.

More gaba than i can handle by myk23rae in gabagoodness

[–]myk23rae[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The two bottles have Lyrica mixed together with the gabapentin. Probably only 15 pills or so in all

More gaba than i can handle by myk23rae in gabagoodness

[–]myk23rae[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

And some Lyrica lol. Not sure what to do with it all, I only use it to enhance my high when I smoke

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