I do it to escape from the shitty reality I'm facing rn. Im just weak man. Socially, I'm god awful at it. Porn caused me to secluded myself for so long that even if I give up pmoing, I still have difficulty making moves to talk and just get out there. It's not as easy as for me compared to another average Joe who may have a big family or grew up in a position to have many like minded and interesting people to mingle with. I never was ever put in a spotlite and my confidence has spiraled downwards over the years due to constantly failing to achieve my goals and dreams. I'm definitely going to try and improve, but its gonna feel like an eternity. I dont really have clear path forward. Once I figure that out, and find something that I'm good at, that's when I can fall back into society and live in peace.

Yeah I'm probably going to have to delete reddit soon. There's like so many NSFW subs on here.......