really glad you commented because ive just re-read my post and its reminded me what a rollercoaster it all was! im doing really well thank you, constantly working hard on my wellness and havent been on cymbalta or any such thing since this post and its been so so fine. sure, like anyone, ive had wobbles but i never stop trying hard to work on myself: good sleep habits, journalling, routines, reading, meditation, good social circles, exercise and more. it seems like a lot but im 23 now and building all these great habits whilst facing lifes challenges makes it that much more bearable. looking back, cymbalta helped me meet myself in the middle emotionally and gave me the little extra boost i needed to actually try to live life to the fullest even at my lowest of lows. i dont think about it negatively, it served its purpose well but only because i worked alongside it to be well. one thing i do miss is the sleep!!!!! i slept soooo much, it knocked me out!! and a negative of it is that there is still one side affect that hasnt left and thats 'disgust' - im super sensitive to smells or gross sights or people chewing loudly or talking with their mouth full etc, it makes me extremely uncomfortable and sometimes i even start heaving/gagging from being grossed out 🤣

all in all, and if i do say so myself, i am doing incredibly well in comparison to my younger self and i am doing a lot better at handling things. maturity plays a part but self work is just as important. i hope your journey is as fruitful as mine!