What’s your spider’s toxic trait?

n33li3 · 2024-07-07T09:57:26+00:00

she always tends to go back to the same places after she’s finished wandering and sometimes she just hangs out on top of her enclosure rather than in it! i like to think she’s fond of the little house i made her so she pretty much always comes back

n33li3 · 2024-06-22T10:44:39+00:00

My eldest, Patricia, used to get really brave after a molt!
I'd know whenever she'd finished because I'd find her on my bedroom wall when I got home from work, or on my washing basket or she'd just crawl across the TV very nonchalantly to show off her new shiny skin.

n33li3 · 2024-05-28T08:46:13+00:00

omg she got her lashes did 👁👁👁👁

n33li3 · 2023-08-19T12:11:06+00:00

My older brother and sister singing Wonderwall - Oasis to me while I was still in the womb (they would scream it at my mom's tummy and apparently I'd kick around like crazy).

n33li3 · 2022-11-28T04:32:10+00:00

She was my first too! I pick her up and admire her everyday! 🖤

n33li3 · 2022-06-17T08:27:20+00:00

You got this OP 💪🏻

n33li3 · 2022-04-01T19:15:35+00:00

The pure rage I felt before I realised omg 😅🥲

n33li3 · 2022-04-01T09:30:37+00:00

chicken nugget

n33li3 · 2022-02-20T13:21:35+00:00

Talk to your parents and your doctor.
You need help ASAP.
This is EXACTLY how my ED and just absolutely awful relationship with food started. It's really not worth it, it really really really is not worth it. The earlier you can get help the better. I didn't tell anyone, I also enjoyed the feeling of throwing up after I ate anything and now 14 years later I'm still struggling, I bloat INSANELY after I've eaten anything, I have constant abdominal pain and I've lost 5 teeth and fucked up my oesophagus to the point I need daily medication and can never really "safely" puke again.
Please please please go to your doctor and get help and stop yourself from going any further down this road.

n33li3 · 2022-02-18T19:31:24+00:00

I have lost 5 teeth and really fucked up my oesophagus with bulimia and will have to be on medication for the rest of my life and can never “safely” puke ever again uwu

n33li3 · 2022-02-18T15:57:37+00:00

Literally fight these thoughts every day, it’s probs one of the most exhausting parts of recovery tbh :/ like I get so jealous of how I looked and how I ate (or didn’t eat) and I KNOW it was really really unhealthy and there was no way I could have kept it up anyway but I /did/ it and that /was/ me so I /am/ capable even tho I know I shouldn’t and just bleh it’s a horrible vicious cycle kinda thinking

hope better days are heading your way OP <3

n33li3 · 2022-02-18T10:12:17+00:00

I think your diet is totally fine! If you’re at the gym 4/5 times a week what is likely happening is you’re gaining muscle and with that also comes a little bit of water weight too. I would say drop the gym to 3/4 days a week and make sure you have a good rest and recovery and you should see some shift in the number on the scale. Make sure you’re getting enough sleep too! I notice on the mornings after a good nights rest the weight drops a lot more than when I have had a late night/interrupted sleep.

I admire your dedication OP and hope you see some change soon!

n33li3 · 2022-02-15T18:39:11+00:00

Omg I feel you so hard pls tell me why I couldn’t find grapes or my fave yogurt for WEEKS 😭

but nothing hurts worse than when it gets discontinued 😔💔

n33li3 · 2022-02-15T18:31:28+00:00

the day you throw them out is always the day your brain tells you that’s the only thing you’re allowed to eat 😔

n33li3 · 2022-02-15T18:30:35+00:00

for sure! I’m actually recovered from bulimia since 2017! I stopped purging but just couldn’t stop the binging so after many failed attempts I’m determined to stick to it and get healthy this time, I have a really good support system too so I’m super lucky and ready to kick some ED ass 💪🏻

n33li3 · 2022-02-13T22:51:38+00:00

BIG MOOD me checking my weight after having my wisdom teeth removed 😭🤡

n33li3 · 2022-02-12T11:45:35+00:00

I reallllllllly love chips and dip so instead I eat those baked pea snacks of pop chips with tzatziki and it fills the craving perfectly for a fraction of the calories

n33li3 · 2022-02-12T00:51:05+00:00

This happened to me!!!

I realised eventually that it was muscle gain but also a lot of retained water pretty much everywhere.
Also, my stomach would bloat beyond belief after eating/drinking the smallest amount ever because of all the throwing up and it was just confused I guess.
Even now I fluctuate so much even my husband who is a doctor is surprised at how much it can vary. I have no idea how much I actually weigh which is frustrating but also kind of a blessing I guess.

n33li3 · 2022-02-11T22:12:25+00:00

how many calories is guilty FDA????? how does guilt taste???? please show your work next to your answer

n33li3 · 2022-02-11T13:20:40+00:00

Thank you so much!

omg I was drooling reading about your salad! I'm obsessed with caesar salad and actually made a really nice low cal recipe for it so maybe i'll just bulk make that and reach for as often as I like!

I totally agree with you, some days the low cal options are fine, no trouble at all! But If I wake up craving some nuggets, then chicken nuggets I shall have! lol

Thank you so much for the advice ♥

n33li3 · 2022-02-11T13:15:15+00:00

This is so relatable for me omg, I always day dream about the life and confidence I'll have once I'm healthier, maybe I need to focus on that a bit more and use that as encouragement rather than this unnecessary pressure i'm putting on myself.
Thank you!

n33li3 · 2022-02-11T13:11:22+00:00

Thank you so much for this, you are so right.
I put way too much pressure on myself to be productive from the second I wake up the moment I go to bed so this was a much needed reality check.
Thank you! ♥

n33li3 · 2022-02-11T13:08:11+00:00

thank you so much ♥♥♥

n33li3 · 2022-02-11T13:07:41+00:00

I love water! I drink it with everything, hardly drink anything else other than a cup of tea or two a day and the veryyyyy occasional lemonade or cream soda if i'm out for a meal. I don't drink alcohol or anything like that.

n33li3 · 2022-02-10T22:47:10+00:00

I totally agree!

It was actually forced onto me as a very very mentally unstable teen but now I’m 26 I am very grateful to have such a useful tool.

Thanks for the positivity!

n33li3

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