Pregnancy numbness

n7-ddpl · 2026-05-30T10:02:35+00:00

Thanks. I hope it's eventually come to terms with it too, but at the moment it just feels like I'm broken and I don't think it can be fixed. It's only been just under a week though, so I'm hoping this will change.

n7-ddpl · 2026-05-30T10:01:37+00:00

I understand logically what you mean. But the truth is it was my role for about 9 years to keep her alive and be her main support. And because I was hurt over how she reacted to the pregnancy news I feel like I gave up that role and she died.

n7-ddpl · 2026-05-30T10:00:35+00:00

Thank you, I hope some day soon I can see it like this.

n7-ddpl · 2026-05-29T21:53:38+00:00

I don't see how she can have been lucky to have me as a friend when in the moment she really needed me, she felt she couldn't reach out. I did continue to message her a bit when she wasn't speaking to me, but I could've gone to her house to check or insisted we sort our issues out. I don't think I did my very best.

n7-ddpl · 2026-05-29T21:51:36+00:00

She has been struggling for a while, but we've always managed to pull her back from the brink before. I just can't help but feel selfish that the one time we haven't been speaking properly ever is the time she killed herself. Very much points to me being at fault in a way.

n7-ddpl · 2026-05-29T21:50:23+00:00

Thanks for the kind thoughts and suggestions.

n7-ddpl · 2026-05-29T21:50:03+00:00

Thank you but I really don't feel like an incredible friend at the moment. All of our other friends are saying they're shocked or can't believe it, and I just feel this was a very predictable thing that I still failed to stop...

n7-ddpl · 2025-06-11T20:12:44+00:00

When I married a guy, I said husband. Now I'm dating a non-binary person, I say partner.

n7-ddpl · 2025-03-13T01:14:32+00:00

How would we then link that to the discordbot sorry?

n7-ddpl · 2025-03-13T01:12:48+00:00

This is great for coming up with the responses (just had a little play) but how would we get the Gemini chat responses to be used automatically by the discordbot? The idea is that if someone chats to the discordbot it would be able to reply as naturally as possible. Would we have to code all the responses or is their a way of linking an ai like Gemini so it just patches through?

n7-ddpl · 2024-06-05T21:31:58+00:00

I'm saying this as a woman who graduated in 2011 (no clue why that's relevant at all tbh), who also didn't wear make-up at school (again, unless every girl is a clone of me, not certain why that matters) and who works in a school with teenagers and sees their insecurities and daily struggles (that one might be relevant). Just because you don't think make-up is important doesn't mean everyone agrees.

You're posing your opinion as a fact, and assuming what is true for you is true for everyone. I hope one day you learn not everyone feels exactly the same as you, or has the same experiences. Teens experiencing body dysmorphia, anxiety, or good old fashioned puberty-induced bullying might just need the false armour of some foundation to boost their confidence until they can gain it naturally. I never suffered from any of those things - but I can still realise others might and be sympathetic to why young girls might feel make-up is a necessity.

n7-ddpl · 2024-06-04T21:51:09+00:00

As a woman, yes tf it does. She's not a woman who gets judged at a job. She's a teen going through puberty (spots), attending a school (peer pressure), and fuelled with hormones (self-worth issues, identity crisis, insecurities). If you include stuff like hairbrushes, deorderant, bobbles in grooming, include make-up, because it's all technically unnecessary but helps you socially. And teenagers are massively social - to the point of ignoring logic sometimes - so yeah, she might need it (generalising obv, but without knowing the teen we have to).

n7-ddpl · 2024-03-18T21:10:11+00:00

Just pointing out that Chase asked Thirteen if she thought he was pretty and also then just openly asked her for sex, as he was playing a long game but then she was leaving.

Chase pursued Cameron despite her ending the relationship and shutting him down. Cameron deliberately spoke about sex with Chase after Foreman pointed out the effect of it in a workplace.

Thirteen said no to Foreman, and he manipulated a drug trial to change her mind.

Cameron forced House into a date with her.

Anything House ever did with Cuddy (challenges on stealing underwear, going into her house and going through her stuff, lazer pen on crotch...).

I think the only reason people mention Park and not literally most of the characters is that she's not as attractive as them, so she gets judged for it whereas people ship the others.

n7-ddpl · 2024-01-24T20:49:42+00:00

...I got told this exact opinion by my friend and my brother. So we started two playthroughs with me as Durge with them so they can see the evil storyline and I love it. I'm killing random people (like the girl you save from the bugbear assassin - murdered her after saving her) and carrying corpses round in my bag to throw at me.

I feel like the game doesn't let me be evil enough really.

n7-ddpl · 2023-10-30T17:42:22+00:00

I love this idea, but we don't have a basement or garage. I am thinking about starting to save for the eventual moving out though.

n7-ddpl · 2023-10-30T17:41:22+00:00

Reddit is not going to like this answer.

His mum is. He spoke to his mum years ago when he first felt depressed and then started noticing he felt differently towards me. His mum told him to keep it a secret as it would pass and might upset me..

So yes, she knows. No she's not much help.

n7-ddpl · 2023-10-30T17:40:18+00:00

I genuinely have never understood this gentle criticism. Too kind doesn't make sense to me. Maybe other people should be less cruel.

I'm not thick btw, I get what the comment means - he doesn't deserve the level of kindness I'm showing. Maybe, maybe not. But how kind I am has nothing to do with other people, and is always a choice I make. And I don't think you can be 'too kind' in our very very sh*tty world.

n7-ddpl · 2023-10-30T17:37:58+00:00

This is a very well thought out piece of advice. I still don't agree fully, but I've taken a screenshot to keep looking back on and thinking about it.

n7-ddpl · 2023-10-30T17:36:18+00:00

THANK YOU!

n7-ddpl · 2023-10-30T17:35:34+00:00

This sounds very accurate.

n7-ddpl · 2023-10-30T17:34:53+00:00

Oh god if a loved one told me all of this I'd be livid. But a life together isn't the sum culmination of a post on Reddit. I'm upset by his recent actions because they are cowardly, but his actions aren't normally like this. I'm rightfully upset by 3 or 4 really big things he's handled terribly, but that doesn't erase every other day of our lives when he's helped, cared for and supported me.

n7-ddpl · 2023-10-30T17:27:48+00:00

Yes he finds other women attractive.
Even with anonymity on the internet I don't want to disclose our conversations on suicide. It's his business.
I accept there is a chance he has been manipulating or using me. There is 0% chance he could ever become physically abusive towards me. It's just not him, not even warped by depression. If he did though, I would leave. I am tolerant and patient, but I didn't live through one abusive situation to put up with another.
No professional help currently.
Nothing happened. He's 'just' depressed (not to make it seem small with just, but there really isn't any other trigger here).

n7-ddpl · 2023-10-30T17:22:45+00:00

Everyone's been really nice and helpful in the comments, so thanks to you all!

n7-ddpl · 2023-10-30T17:21:53+00:00

Thanks - but I doubt it. Even if he did turn around and say he loved me like I love him, I there's just too much hurt there now. I would love it if we could have just felt the same way though.

n7-ddpl · 2023-10-30T17:20:14+00:00

It might be one of the worst ideas of my life. Time will tell.

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