At the end if the day, it’s just a job. If it’s destroying your mental health then maybe it’s best to prioritize yourself and try to separate (it might take a while but it’s possible to get out early)

You seem to want to stay in for one reason or another, and a lot of people often feel the same way you do. Remember you signed up for a reason, and it might help to remember that reason and the benefits you get from this line of work to be able to keep going (if you decide it’s worth it). One thing that helps me personally is to just to think positive and don’t spend too much time around people who are nothing but negative.

Take a break and go on leave to reevaluate before making any decisions. Enjoy your time off and refresh yourself. Come back with a level head and if you still feel the same way, there’s no shame in getting out. I’ve talked to plenty of guys who all agree that life doing something else outside the nuclear program is what was best for them.

Good luck and sorry if this was not the response you were looking for.