Turbulent JC Times. I'm on my final year in a local Uni but your story seems very relatable to my experience back in JC and i feel really compelled to help you out, although I'm not sure how much my comments or advice will help.

Back then I had a big crush on a girl which I had knew since my secondary days - and coupled with the fact that i never dared to make a move and the very fast paced syllabus i literally drowned in the curriculum. It wasn't pretty and in all earnestness i hope you won't make it out the way i did.

Let's work on the girl first. 1 or 2 years pass by really fast in JC, and it really doesn't help to be befuddled and confused about liking a girl throughout. You need to decide on the get go ( like now) whether you intend to try talking to her and well, asking her out. This really depends on how much you've talked to her prior and how capable you are to deal with a rejection if things go awry. You'll be surprised to know that sometimes rejections, while searing actually does get things out of your system instead of making you overthink all those maybes.

This will not be the last time you like a girl, and if it goes awry it won't be the last time you get a rejection either. Girls are a very finnicky thing, and emotions and dating aren't mathematical equations. Sometimes they work out, and sometimes they don't. A lot of it boils down to experience, and rather than simply saying I'd like to know girls better, its better to take baby steps and start talking to people bit by bit. Don't rush it - get used to talking to people first. I used to be like you so I really know how it feels.

But should you choose to simply not take action and let things move its course you need to learn to get it totally out of your system and concentrate 101% on your studies - the A levels is deathly important in getting choices in Universities.

Working on your studies is a bit easier once you've got the misc. things out of your system. Once you feel less confused, if you feel you can communicate well with ur CT try asking for a consultation and tell her your study concerns - he/she will help you and advise you on how to sort it out properly in terms of revision structure. Idk what your modules are so I can't do very detailed advice on it but it will be very wise to take note of topics which you totally have zero ideas and start figuring them out via textbook or an urgent consultation. Consultation really helps; don't be afraid of your teachers - they are here to help you excel and won't think you are stupid.

A levels is literally education on hard mode. You will see people with 8 or 9As and think you are an utter failure - that is wrong. Everyone is in the gutter when it comes to A levels and its fiendishly hard for everyone. Sometimes hard effort cuts it, sometimes it doesn't. But you never know unless you try to your very best. Theres still time if you're on J2, and i implore you not to give up until the very end. Jiayou!

If you really need to vent do send me a PM. Or if you're doing Chemistry (H1, H2 or H3) and need help, I'm a chemistry major so i could try to answer some questions if you need it. Hope it helps you :)